I'm Not Crazy || Taekook

First Moment

I ran up the 4 flights of stairs then down the hall to my dorm. Right as I approached the door, I ran into Namjoon and Yoongi.

"Hey, is Taehyung hyung in the room?" I asked catching my breath.

"He is... but I suggest that you stay out of there" Namjoon suggested before walking down the hall along with Yoongi.

I looked back at them, then at the door to my dorm. I walked up to it and knocked 2 times.

Taehyung's P.O.V

I lost it... I hate when people make fun of me, doesn't everyone? It's annoying and upsetting. You have no f*cking idea what happened to me before, so stop. I snapped at Jimin, I know that. Honestly, I don't even realize that I do it until it's to late. Its almost like it's something subconscious.

I yell so often it's almost like second nature. But something felt different this time, which is why I quickly left. Was it cause everyone was silently looking, judging, and staring at me? Or was it cause of that new kid, Kook, sitting right in front of me, who looked utterly terrified?

Something about him is different, but like in a good way. I don't know, I can't explain it, but I feel like I'll enjoy having him around for a bit.

Once I got back to the room, I was still really mad and needed to let off some steam, so I threw my pillow and sheets around the room, and flipped the little wooden table that was placed in front of the small square window, which was the only one in the room. After that, I just yelled at the top of my lungs. I even punched the wall. I hit it so hard that I left a dent. I was in such a bad mood, that Namjoon and Yoongi hyung left the room. I grabbed myself a beer, opened it and started to drink it. I also got a cigarette, lit it, and started to smoke it. With a beer bottle in one hand, and a cigarette in the other, I climbed to my bunk and sat there, legs dangling over the edge, in silence. Not to long after, I heard a knock at the door. If it was Jimin, I really didn't want to hear his apology.

Jungkook's P.O.V

"Come in" said the deep voice from in the room "It's open"

I slowly opened the door and entered. I was taken aback at the state of the room. Sheets and pillows everywhere, the wooden table that was now flipped on it's side, and the smell of both beer and cigarettes.

I looked over to my left, and there I saw Taehyung sitting on his top bunk, with his feet dangling, and his beer and cigarette. I gave him a faint smile, but he did nothing in return. I closed the door, then sat on the top step on the ladder to Taehyung's bunk,

"Hey" I said.

Taehyung didn't answer. He just sat there, drinking and smoking.

"I just came to see how you were" I continued.

"I'm fine" He snapped not making eye contact.

"Ok... uh, s-sorry... f-for earlier" I apologized, stuttering a bit cause I wasn't sure how'd he respond

"Don't be" He took a break to smoke "You didn't do anything, it was Jimin"

I wasn't sure what to say next, so I just looked down and played with my fingers. In the corner of my eye, I saw Taehyung looking at me, I turned my head and looked back at him. I think he could sense the fact that I was a bit nervous to talk to him.

"What do you think when you see me?" He asked quite calmly

I was confused by the question "I-I'm sorry?"

"Like, what's your impression of me? Scary? Broken? Maniac?"

"No no... I mean, I'm a bit scared of you, but I don't think you're a maniac or broken... we all have our issues, that's why we're here"

"Everyone thinks I'm a big, mean d*ck right off the bat, and because I have a short temper, people think I have serious problem and judge me, and I hate that! No one knows what I've been through, so they can't judge me! Yes, I don't laugh or smile but what's it to you?"

"I never judged you"

"You just said that you're scared of me"

"Well, yeah, cuz you just send out that vibe, and you kinda act like it to, but I never judged you for it"

I heard a very low and quiet sigh come out of Taehyungs mouth, almost as if he was disappointed.

"It's not fun always being the mean one, but I have no choice, it's how I survive, how I get respect" Taehyung explained slouching a little.

I got up and sat right next to him, with my legs dangling as well. I was having difficulty figuring out what to say.

"Well, ya gotta do what ya gotta do"

I gave him a faint smile, he looked at me and let out what sounded like a chuckle. He looked down at his cigarette then back at me,

"You wanna try?" He asked hold the cigarette out at me.

"Uh, n-no, but thank you for offering Taehyung"

He shrugged,

"Suit yourself" he said as he put the tip of the cigarette in his mouth, and leaned back a little, "And call me Tae"

When I heard him say that, my stomach flipped. I had no idea why though.

Was that our first moment? Yeah! It was the first time we talked on a human level about issues. It was the first time I felt connected to him in the 12 hours I've been in this hospital. He wasn't judging me over the fact that I was new and didn't know anything about the place, he was opening up in a way. It felt good, I'm not gonna lie

But why did my stomach flip whenever I saw him? The only other times this has happen was when- Oh my God.

Wait

Do I....

Like Tae?

I looked over at his perfect body. His large biceps perfectly covered with patterns on ink caught my attention immediately. He was perfect. I was definitely attracted to him.

I felt so happy, I never wanted this moment to end.

"And just so it's clear... I may be in a mental hospital, but I'm not crazy" Taehyung warned with a deep and threatening voice looking at the opposite wall

I was a bit taken aback at the sudden change in Taehyungs behavior,

"I never said you were" I replied

"Good... Never say it or imply it" Taehyung said before jumping off the bunk and walking away.

And just like that, our first moment was gone.