JASH

Chapter 22

                         Ashley

"Ash" Nico called behind me but I just ignored him.
"Ash" he repeated.
I still ignored him.
Then he grabbed my hand and forcefully made me turn.
"What Nico what!?" I yelled
"Ash just calm down. Since when did you let a simple stranger effect you that much!?" he inquired
"Nico what the fuck is his problem!? At first he just pops in my life and has some kind special hate reserved for me. Then he is nice with me. I dance with another guy and he seems to be strangely effected by it. Then he becomes all caring and when a problem comes he just blames it all on me. And then he is acting like he is some kind of God that has the right to interfere in my life and be all dominating!! Well fucking hell cause he doesn't have a tiniest bit of right to interfere in my life!! " I yelled in a single breath.
" Ash he is jealous. " said Nico in his usual calm voice.
" Jealous??" I scoffed
" Yes, jealous Ash. He cares for you and it effects him when you are with other guys. He doesn't know us so he thinks we are some kind of guys hitting on you like all other people do. Ash you just need to tell him that we are like your brothers. Just explain it to him." he continued
"Fucking hell Nico!! Why should I explain anything to him? Why?" I yelled
"That is something for you to understand yourself. Look inside you and think why do you care about how he reacts. Why do you feel so bad and effected!?" he explained while gripping my shoulders.
"Well Nico you tell me!! Why do you feel effected when Mylie is with other guys? Why do you care if she is a one night stand type of girl? Why do want her to stop hitting on random guys?" I shouted.
Hearing this Nico turned away looking at the sky.
"I don't know what you are talking about!" he mumbled
"Of course you don't.! Nico I am no idiot and I can see how you look at her. When you met her 2 years ago you were like enemies. But it slowly faded and you started bearing each other. When Mylie left for Canada weren't you effected? She is back now isn't she but she is still the same old Mylie. The player Girl. Why does that effect you, Nico Skylar?" I continued shouting.
" Ash I don't care for her. " he mumbled.
"You were upset today because she was again being her player self and banging on someone. Don't you dare think of me as an idiot!! You all think that I only care about myself. That I don't understand what is happening around me. Well let me tell you. I can see how Nel and Anna are snogging each other every other day yet continue to deny the feelings they have for each other. They have done that for a long time. At first Anna had a boyfriend and now that she has broken up Nel is again the lover boy. James and Lina are trying to act tough because Lina has a gang to lead and she can't be falling for others while James knows that how much I need him. He knows that without him I can't survive. He knows that he was the one who saved me from my past terrors. He was the one with whom I made this gang. He gave me a purpose. But that doesn't mean he can't live his own life. He has every right to live and love. But no, you all are my best friends but you still think that I won't understand you. Well I do. I am not a baby who needs constant watching over. Yes I need your support but that doesn't mean I am helpless. I can fend for myself and it is time you understand that. " I yelled. I sensed some one behind me and I saw that all my other friends were standing there except Mylie.

Nel and Anna were shocked while James looked sad and Lina showed no emotions. I looked at Nico and saw his face was also emotion less. With that I ran off towards my car with tears streaming down my face. My foot twisted and I was about to fall down when I grabbed a pole to steady myself. Unfortunately my injured arm again got hit while I was trying to steady myself and I felt warm blood trickle down my arm.

Today, after many months I was crying and instead of anger I felt pain. Pain tearing down my insides. Pain on not being understood. My friends were my everything. My family was something I avoided. They never understood me but James, Nico and Nel were my brothers who I could rely on. Lina was my everything. Mylie and Anna were my strength,my support. And today despite of years of belief, love and support today I was crying because I realized that I didn't really had people who understood me. Maybe they did but right now I was just one hell of a lonely girl.

I opened the door of my car and slumped on the seat. My sadness triggered my past memories and they bombarded my mind. A black and white girl sitting in the attic crying. A girl watching her mom scream at her. A girl looking at the proof of her brother's bad deeds. A girl watching her sister only care for her own life. A girl holding a little brother in her arms and consoling him that all will be alright. A girl laughing among her friends but crying on her inside. A girl climbing high buildings and watching the world beneath her. A girl looking at a man with a lisp talking to her, trying to distract her while he was trying to..... NOOOO!!!!

"Ash, Ash calm down.!!" I said to myself.
"It's the past and wont happen again. You got over it. It's not happening again. You are strong now. It will not happen again. It won't, It won't...."I continued to trying to calm myself.

"The great fighter and businesswoman Ashley Black. Just look at you. You own an empire and lead a mafia gang yet you are still trying to calm yourself all alone. Huh fate really has a sense of humor." I laughed bitterly.
Out of the rear mirror I saw my friends running towards my car. My heart begged me to just step out of the car and go hug them and talk to them but I just stepped on the accelerattor and speeded away leaving them in a cloud of dust.

I drove through the woods and into the forest. After half an hour I reached near a wood house in the middle of a clearing in the forest. I stepped out of my car and opened the door of the wood house. I saw a black,  motor bike looking at me inviting me to an adventure.

I parked my car in and changed into black jeans and shirt and a leather jacket. Then I sat on the motor bike and speeded away.

I stopped infront of large penthouse. Lights were on and someone was moving in the upper part of the house. The curtains were drawn and it was really easy to enter the house.

I rang the bell and seconds later a blue eyed devil opened the door.
"Ash!" he murmured in surprise
"Oh so I am not Miss Black any more?" I sneered while stepping inside.
"Ashley what do you want?" Jason asked.
"I want you to change out of your Pj's and come with me." I said while turning to face him.

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