Out of Control

Silentium Mea Culpa

" My indifferences marked a permanent scar in your heart, I regret that for the rest of my life. "

I was startled by the series of tones in my mobile phone it's Lukas....Fucking Shit Lukas what is wrong with you pagalit na sita ni Miguel sa kaibigan, daig mo pa ang babaeng nag seselos sa dami ng pinadala mong messages at misscalled sa akin...

Nagtaka ako sa boses ni Lukas at sinabing Miguel., I used your stocked blood due of health emergency and para maka siguro na rin na anak mo yun kambal ni Amethyst , I perform a paternity test mamaya malalaman ko na ang result...are you high in drugs pano ako nagkaruon ng anak sa babae na yan napipikon sabi ko sa kaibigan ko...Fresh blood... walang paligoy ligoy na sabi ni Lukas...Kaya nakiki usap nako I need fresh blood ng Rh Null para nga sa mga anak mo dito sa Pilipinas, walang kasama si Amethyst silang 3 lang na mag iina ang nandito sa Manila.

Code Blue Dra Gatchalian and Dr Salvana Code Blue to suite 1206...paging system ng hospital..

FUCKING ASSHOLE ROCKEFELLER MAG BIYAHE KA NA MAY NANGYAYARI NA SA BATA PUTANG INA MO....Shit bigla akong napatayo sa kama at sumigaw na rin ako palabas ng kuwarto Brandon let's fly in the Philippines it's emergency

I heard the voice that I've been longing for years..." E-toff please E-toff...Doc Lukas anong nangyayari sa anak ko...Amethyst maiwan ka muna dito...kami na ang bahala sa kanya...bantayan mo muna ang isa, Doc bagsak ang platelets... use all the remaining stocked blood...Doc Lukas, the child is also weeping like her Mother Mommy, Mommy why are they taking E-toff again, Mommy,Mommy..".All I know I was numb from the pain of past, wala na akong dapat maramdaman bakit ganito pa rin parang pati puso ko nabuhay ulit.

Habang nandito kami sa loob ng Private Jet hindi ako mapakali 4 hours na nasa ere kami bago kami lalapag ng Philippines...maliwanag nang dumating kami ni Brandon papuntang Hospital ni Lukas...nadatnan ko pa ang isang batang lalaki na nasa ICU habang nag seizure para akong sinipa ng elephante sa dibdib hindi ako maka hinga galit na galit ako may mga anak pala ako sa kanya bakit nanahimik siya, kahit kailan napaka selfish niya...walang pakialam sa damdamin ng iba....where she is Lukas? Nasa suite mo kasama ng isang anak mo....I rush toward her like a bull ready to charged when I saw her sleeping peacefully with my another son I grabbed her upright not even minding her cried of pain when Brandon preventing me from hurting her physically...George also shielding her...I want to crushed her for being so selfish...when I saw her entering the conference room she is uneasy, I don't care all I want to know is my children health condition when suddenly she is accusing me of being madamot...pano ako naging madamot lahat naman ginawa ni Lukas ah nagamit naman yun mga reserbang dugo ko... so then, for her I'm madamot...when does she approach me to ask help? she never make any effort to informed me that we have children to begin with...now she is accusing me that I don't even care nor love my children..

This is my dream from the start to make her mother of my children and fucking shit ...why she is accusing me of something I didn't do and why she is cursing me and my mother as if we took something from her... I was taken a back when she throw the bottle water on my direction...I was shocked does my darling is back?..I came back with my senses when the lady doctor told me we should perform the blood transfusion I need to calm myself for my children ....one is suffering from Dengue the other one from paratyphoid..Fucking Life...what a nice reunion...

Seeing my boy for the first time...is combination of guilt and pain...to my son condition my heart is full it's like that I was beaten by the Lions in the Jungle, God, why my darling is so unfair, she knows how to torture me, she knows how to kill me...will play your game...this is what you want then I will play your game Amethyst Cassandra Rockefeller...