Out of Control

Bridging the Gap

" The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more. That plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds.” — Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

My heart is full with warm fuzzies,..I called Alice and told to her to expect me within a hour of two. My wife ask me that my family especially my mother should witness our blessing of vows... Amethyst and I are very much legally married what she's asking is the blessing of our vows to be officiate by a Vicar she want that our second union should be guided by the Heavenly Ray.

It's about time to change the tragic memories into a Blissful memories three days before we celebrate our first  Anniversary and that on day of her bigday be filled with surprise and love ended with  painful breakup... then day after her birthday she lost both of her pillars of her images her mom and brother...my wife told me whatever  turbulent relationship I had with my mother I should let it past and bury it deep and be honest with myself that somehow I need my family the pain can be cure by forgiveness and happiness  she keep telling me that I'm so lucky I still have my siblings...my mother and while she lost all of them at  once.

When I saw the three women in my life waiting for me the emptiness in my heart I wish to fill with positivity, I been estranged with my mother for decade for what she had done to Olivia and to my wife... one that filled with so much anguish and betrayal. My wife is right I need to let go of the past...Decade of silently struggling with pains will not bring the best in me. My mother will be my mother no matter what  at the end I'm the one who is hurting badly, I'm dying inside out my wife told at once I should be honest to myself that I also missed my mom and she knew that I love my mommy so much if not I wouldn't wait for more that 5 years to investigate on that painful incident.

Hey Miguel you arrived Susan approached me and gave me a brotherly hug and kiss as always the sweetest smile she flash to all. Congratulation for having another babies ohh our family is getting bigger right Mommy as she address to our mother.

Lumuha lang si Amanda gusto gusto na niyang yakapin ang anak at sabihin patawarin na siya, nabulag lang siya sa galit na hatid nang pagseselos kung dati-rati umiikot lang buhay ni Miguel sa kanilang tatlo ng mga kapatid niya...tanggap na niya na meron pang isang Lady Rockefeller na mas kailangan siya...lubos niyang  pinag sisihan ang ginawa niya kay Olivia at Amethyst...Tumayo si Alice ang niyakap ang kapatid sabay silang magkapatid na nilapitan ang Ina nila...Mommy will leave you with Miguel anya ng panganay niya, hinila ni Alice si Susan at lumabas silà sa receiving area...

I can no longer hold back... My son is my own flesh and blood,  I embraced him so tight as I cried so hard for him to feel I'm deeply sorry for giving him the hole on his heart....hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko sa kanya para patawarin na lang niya ako, ano bang hakbang ang gagawin ko para pakinggan niya ang pag sorry ko...ang tagal tagal ko ng hindi nayayakap at nahalikan ang anak ko...ang dami dami kong kasalanan sa kanya na lahat yun pinalampas niya...ramdam kong ginantihan din ni Miguel ang yakap ko, ang tagal kong nangulila sa yakap ng anak ko..I'm sorry and I love you mommy anya ni Miguel sa Ina si Amanda wala ng ginawa kundi lalong umiyak isang tanghoy ng Inang nagsisisi sa lahat ng kasalanan...

Sa takot ni Alice at Susan baka meron nangyari sa receiving area dali-dali na pumasok ang mag kapatid nadatnan nilang magkayakap si Miguel at Amanda sabay pang na luha ang magkapatid at nilapitan nila ang kanilang Ina at bunsong kapatid nakiyakap na rin silà...Rockefeller once again is united because of the deep sense of Family.

(Amanda Madrigal Rockefeller for imaginative purpose only)

(Senator Alice Samantha Madrigal Rockefeller imaginative purpose only)

(Atty. Susan Andrea Madrigal Rockefeller for imaginative purpose only)