"Oh Zayn. It's always here."
"To be honest here... you're really scaring me Harry." Liam said and the boys nooded their heads agreeing. I bit my lip and took a deep breath.
"I know I'm scaring you guys but I guess... reality is scary..." Liam whispered something to Niall and he just shrugged.
"Uhmmm... Harry?" Liam said unsure.
"Yeah?"
"Do you think that you're...uhm... I don't know... maybe depressed?" I looked shocked at Liam. Am I depressed? I've never considered that as an option. No it can't be? Pff I just have a voice in my head that is killing me on the inside. Okay I have many problems.
"I don't know Liam."
Harry. When they're gone, you're in deep shit.
Oh my god what does that mean?! I started to fiddle with my fingers, I always do that when I'm nervous.
"Harry are you okay? You suddenly got paler?"
Tell them Harry. You're fine right?
"I-I'm fine." The boys gave eachother looks.
"I think you should have some alone time Harry. For you to think. We are going out for a little bit so you can have your space."
"N-no please stay." I said begging them
"It's okay we have to go out anyway, go watch a movie or something, it'll be okay." Liam said and gave me a wide smile. A movie? Really Liam?
"Bye Harry we'll be back in a bit!" After I herd the door shut I started to freak out.
Well Harry.
"Please don't hurt me, I'm begging you."
Oh shut it. Stop being a little bitch.
"W-what are you gonna do to me?"
Harm yourself again.
"Please don't do that to m-me again." I said and fell to the floor.
Then do it to your precious little friends Harry. You or your friends Harry.
"You know that I will pick me."
Well okay. Cut your wrist.
I wanted to jump off a building when he said that. Or should I say 'it'?
I shook my head and stood up and walked to the kitchen. But then I realized I still have the knife in my back pocket.
I took the bloody knife out of my pocket and looked at it with disguist.
We don't have all the time on earth. Do it.
I felt the tears come... again.
I stared at the knife for a minute. I shakily breathed.
"I forgot my keys I'm such a mo--" I looked behind me quick and saw Niall with his mouth open.
"H-harry?" I dropped the knife to the floor and I feel like I was in slow motion.
"H-harry? Why does t-the knife have blood on it?" I felt my forehead sweat so much. I can't keep a secret for ONE day.
End it Harry. End it right here, right now.
My lip started to shake. Should I? I mean I can't live like this forever?
I bend down to take the knife still looking at Niall.
"M-maybe this is it buddy." I said and sniffled.
"Niall what is taking you so lo-- Harry?" Now all of the boys were here.
Now it's perfect.
"Maybe life isn't for everyone." I said and let a tear fall down my cheek.
"H-harry what are you thinking? P-please drop the knife." Zayn said and Louis started crying.
"I can't think anymore. He's always there." I said and my voice cracked in the end. I mean it's only been a day since he got in my head and here I am. Trying to kill myself.
"Who is always there?" Louis said a little angry but more sad.
"Damian."
"Think about how much you will be losing if you die Harry." Niall said. I thought about my fans and my loving mother and sister. I thought about how my future would be like.
But if I would be with my family Damian would just tell me to kill them.
"I'm not doing it just for me."
"Then who are you doing it for!" Louis cried and Liam hugged him.
"I'm doing it for the one's I love. I would rather harm myself then harming someone I love."
"You're not harming us?"
"I know but I'm harming myself. How did that knife suddenly get all... bloody?" The boys were all with tears in their eyes
"I'm saying that I would rather kill myself then kill all of you." I said without stuttering, but crying.
"Y-you wouldn't kill us?" Louis said shocked.
"No of course not! But... Damain would."
"Who the fuck is that bastard!" Niall screamed.
"H-he's in my head. I have a voice i-in my head who keeps telling me to kill you boys or me. And I just can't take it anymore! And when I'm done telling you all of this. There is no going back because I have told you everything! Damain said that he would kill me if I would tell you guys and here I am, done telling you. So he will kill me or I will kill me. Which is your choice!" I said and breathed heavily. My vision was blurry from tears.
The lads were speechless and I don't blame them.
"There is no choice anymore. No matter what, I will die right in this moment." I heard sirens come from the house and I saw that Liam was holding his phone. He called the police.
Times up.
I let out my last tear.
"I love you guys so much. Tell my family that I loved them and my fans. My lovely fans." I closed my eyes and felt something on my back. I furrowed my eyebrows.
"O-oh my god." They said.
"A-are those wings?" Louis said. I looked at my hands and they were white. Just white. I touched my back and felt something. A-are those wings?
I opened my eyes and saw the police and the guys with their mouth open.
I felt peace come through my whole body.
"We love you buddy." Louis said non stop crying. I felt... happy? I had to smile because of the feeling I'm feeling. I looked left and saw a wing and I looked to the right and saw another wing.
I took a last look at the boys and smiled.
"I will see you on the other side." I said and smiled and the boys still crying. I closed ny eyes and felt myself going away from the world.
Thank you. Thank you for amazing 21 years. I guess I have to start another life in another world.
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(AN: there will be a sequel ☺ )
