step 1: trying to stay strong
step 2: musical adaptions to your emotions
step 3: not okay but lying about being okay
step 4: apologetic to the people who hurt you
step 5: forgiveness of the people who care the most
step 6: staying strong
step 7: falling back into relapse
step 8: going back into old habits again
step 9: trying to regain being strong again
step 10: forgetting who you are as we'll as everyone else forgetting who you are
step 11: fading away into nothingness
step 12: gone away into an oblivion
