Now Or Never ~An OMGitsfirefoxx Fanfiction~

Now Or Never | | Just Friends?

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I decided to post this extra update for you guys because I'm a nice person. MJ doesn't have to know 😏 ~Emma
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The next couple of days I was in LA I continuously pondered what Tucker had said.

If I were broken up with like that, I don't know.

Truth be told, our relationship had gone dry. We were always in petty little fights and he always seemed distant. Choosing between Tucker and Tom in the first place was probably one of the hardest decisions of my life, and now that I think about it I'm still trying to remember why I chose Tucker in the first place. Frantic, I began to rack my brain.

Why had I chosen Tucker?!

Why I was so scared, I didn't really know. Maybe I was afraid that the last year and a half of my life had been wasted with someone I didn't really love. Maybe it was because I needed proof, proof that at least at one point, I had truly loved him. And I could, I remembered all the nights he rolled away from my arms, all the cuddles he scootched away from, all the little kisses he didn't respond to, all the "I love you's" he didn't return, everything.

It was a one way relationship.

And suddenly, like an oasis in the middle of a desert, another memory flooded my mind. It was of Tom and I, Tucker had gone out to buy some beer for us, and we were on the couch watching a horror movie.

The music intensified and I stiffened. Tom sat next to me, looking amused.

"This is SO stupid!" He said, laughing. "Lookit Sonj, you can almost see the camera in the mother trucking mirror!"

"H-ha ha h-ha. Yeah, sorta stupid isn't it?" I stuttered. To be honest, I was scared out of my mind. Horror movies and I never got along when I was young, and nothing had changed. I began to hug myself, my Twitch hoodie sticking to my sweaty body. The music began to die down again and I slowly exhaled. Then suddenly a loud sheik came from the TV, causing me to scream just as loud as the ghost, demon, spirit, whatever it was on the TV and latch myself to Tom in fear. Only after the scene ended did I look at the position he and I were in. I was snuggled close to him, gripping the side of his sweatshirt and his arm was around my shoulders.

Part of me wanted to stay like that forever, I felt safe in Tom's arms, plus we were just friends right? But a wave of embarrassment washed over me when I thought about Tucker walking in and seeing us like this. I reluctantly detached myself from him. "I'm sorry." I whispered, afraid that he would be mad, I mean, he had a girlfriend. His brown eyes softened.

"It's okay." He said simply, giving me a half smile. I could tell that behind that 'It's okay.' there was so much more, but at the time I decided not to read his expression, afraid of what I would see. I instead just pulled my knees to my chest and hugged myself, trying to erase the thought of Tom and I cuddling from my head.

But now are the days that I wish I would've read his face. Maybe it would've stopped me from the mess I was in right now. Having to choose between my "boyfriend" and my best friend, who am I kidding?

And what about-my thoughts were suddenly interrupted by a loud tell from downstairs.

"SONJ!!" I smiled, recognizing Tom's british accent.

"Coming!!" I yelled back, jumping off my bed and running downstairs.

And all my troubled thoughts of Tucker washed away, for now.

For now.