Now Or Never ~An OMGitsfirefoxx Fanfiction~

Now or Never || Secrets

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Emma and I attempted to stay up all night and write but I may or may not have...slept? Shhhh -MJ
Yeah. I was really hyped up to write as well! The one time in my life! ~Emma
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Its the next day and I keep replaying that night in my head over and over again. His comforting tone makes me feel warm inside.

Tucker approached me with a question, "What do you want for lunch Sonj?"

I don't know why but when he asked that, I realized how he never called me 'hun' or 'babe' or anything sweet. I was confident that Tom would.

Still staring at the wall, thinking about Tom and I, I didn't answer.

"Sonja?" He repeated a little louder.
"Huh what sorry!" I covered.

"What do ya want for lunch?"

"Oh uhhhh, I'd like some Applebees. Mhm. Some good ol' Applebees" I said awkwardly.

"Ugh Sonj, you know the wait time is like, 30 minutes. Fine I guess I'll do it for you." He said, putting on his coat and hat.

I gave him a fake smile and twirled away...not to look cute but to get away before I accidentally say something about Tom and I.

I heard the front door close and saw Tucker's car pull away so I yelled, "TOMMM!!"

To my surprise, he thought something was wrong and came sliding down the stairs with a super-hella-concerned look on his face. He asked confused, "What?"

"Nothing. Tucker's gone for--well it takes half and hour to drive-- an hour and a half, if there's no traffic but we're in LA soooo..." I smirked at him.

"And? No, no, no, Sonja. We are not doing anything--like what we have done--- until we figure this out. I don't want to put you through this." He said sincerely.

"But Tom...I---"

I love you--I wanted to say

"You what?" He asked.

"I don't want to have to choose! Tucker is my boyfriend and you are my best friend--" I got a little quieter, "and maybe more than just my best friend." I said, tears starting to blur my vision.

"Sonj---" He started to say something but I ran up to his level and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. He kissed me back. We sat there for a minute and it felt so perfect.

I turned back and started to head downstairs, I hesitated to say it, but I did..."Tom, I love you." I let the words pour out, a tear sliding down my cheek. I briskly walked away and slammed the door to the basement so he knows that I had meant what I just said. And I did. I love Tom.
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For the next five minutes, I find myself on the sofa, sobbing my eyes out. My weeping was loud enough for Tom to hear so when he came down the stairs it didn't surprise me.
He sat next to me and I looked up at him when he asked, "You do? You love me?"

"Tom! Can't you see the situation I'm in right now!? I used to know you and Tucker as just friends but then, I wanted one of you to be more than that. I loved you and Tucker at the time. But something about Tucker made me choose him. I missed you so much but then you found a girl so I figured it wasn't a big deal. I have only seen you in your videos and pictures on the social media. My relationship was great with Tucker don't get me wrong. But things went south and our conversations are as dry as a desert. We have nothing to say to each other. He doesn't come up to see me but here I am busing my ass to come see him. I feel like he doesn't love me. Then I come here and you're here and I was happy because you were my best friend. Then you told me that--yeah you two broke up and I was really sad for you. Tucker didn't even care that I was comforting you. Then I realized everything. How much you meant to me. And then things happened and we kissed and I love you Tom! I love you!" I said while tears poured down my face like Niagara Falls.

"Sonja." He looked at me. "I love you too." Then he wiped away some of the tears on my face.

I sighed a little and then continued, "You & I are great. We actually love each other but whatta bout Tucker? I can't just walk up to him all of a sudden and just be like 'Oh hey Tucker, I love Tom, not you' and crush his heart like that!"

"I know. But you have to tell him sometime."

"Sometime" I repeated. "A secret for a little won't hurt right?"

He smiled at me, "Secrets."