Bad Reputation - Shawn Mendes

35 - Almost First Time

Shawn.

"Hey! That's not fair!" Aaliyah sulks as everyone laughs. We're currently playing uno and she has to draw 4 cards to her already handful of cards. My family and I have been spending time eating, watching movies and playing games which has been a blast. The round eventually ends with my mom winning and everyone gives her a round of applause. "I think we should stop before someone gets hurt." My dad says as he collects the cards. "Okay, I'm feeling kinda tired anyways." I add and everyone nods.

I walk back up to my bedroom and look at my phone, 5 texts and 1 missed call from Elle.

Elle: Hey, whatcha doing?
Elle: Text me when you see this!
*1 missed call*
Elle: I miss you
Elle: I'm getting kinda tired, I'm going to bed
Elle: Goodnight Love <3

Shit, I've been so engrossed with my family that i completely forgot to check my phone that has been charging upstairs. I quickly type a message to send to Elle, and let her know that I'm going to swing by even though she said she's going to sleep.

Shawn: Sorry, I've been playing uno and watching movies with my family.
Shawn: I'm coming over right now!

I grab my hoodie and head back downstairs. "I'm going to Elle's!" I yell before opening the door. I hop into my car and turn the ignition on but it wouldn't start. "Damn it." I hit the wheel and groan. I head back inside and grab a coat, I'm walking over to her house and it's going to be chilly. I stuff my hands into my pockets, and brisk walk to the direction of her house. Pickering was indeed very beautiful, but I forgot how cold it can be during winter.

My steps quicken when I'm close to her house and I see her porch light on, which is strange. As i got closer, i spot her sitting on the chair with a boy next to her. I thought she was going to sleep? I keep a safe distance from them and watch from afar. I didn't want to make any assumptions, and besides Elle wouldn't lie to me, would she?

"I'm sorry Elle. I didn't mean to hurt you." The guy apologises. Who is he and how did he hurt her? "Go home Jacob." Elle stands up and walks away, returning his jacket and placing it on his lap. Jacob? Chloe's ex? What is he doing at her house at fucking 12am? And why was she wearing his jacket? As Elle was about to walk away, his hand wraps around her wrist and pulls her back, causing her to turn around and face him again. He pulls her into his chest and hugs her. Why isn't she pushing him away?

"What the hell!" Elle shouts. He whispers something, so soft that i can't hear or read his lips either. "No." Elle says bluntly and they finally let go from the hug, causing me to let out a breath that I didn't even realise i was holding in. She turns around and stomps off back into the house while he slumps back down into the chair, covering his face with his hands. "Fuck!" He shouts before standing up and walking off. He crosses the road and heads into a house that was opposite of Elle's.

What could he have whispered to her that made her say no? I stood behind the bushes frozen, debating whether i should go to her house and talk to her or just walk away and go back home. Did I really want to know what happened between them? Before i could make a decision, my phone beeps and it's a message from Elle.

Elle: Are you on the way?

I look back and forth from my phone to her house, if i don't show up that would be suspicious but if i do, we have to talk about what just happened. I swallow the lump in my throat and type a message back to Elle to let her know I'm outside. I walk towards her house and she opens the door, looking around before she finally spots me and waves at me. I shoot a smile back at her and engulf her in a hug. "Did you walk here?" She asks into my chest. "Mhm, my car wouldn't start." I tell her, closing the door behind me. "You must be freezing." She says as she rubs my back, i guess trying to keep me warm.

"It's okay. I'm sorry I didn't see your messages." I apologise and we pull away from the hug. "Can't blame you, it's Christmas Eve." She smiles and holds my hand, leading me up to her bedroom. She lies down on her bed and i do so too, laying beside her and cuddling with her. "Merry Christmas Eleanor." I wish and move a stray piece of hair off her face. "Is it past 12?" She asks and i nod. "Merry Christmas Shawn." She smiles and kisses me softly on the lips.

We pull away and we both look at each other intensely, clearly wanting more. I smash my lips against hers again and a moan escapes her lips, causing me to pull her body closer to mine. Our lips move in synch, my hands travelling down to her waist and hers to my hair, tugging it lightly. This kiss was intense, but it felt like it was what we both needed, something to forget our thoughts. As much as i wanted to ask Elle a billion questions about what i had just witnessed, i just couldn't bare to stop the moment that we both craved, so instead i brushed away all my thoughts and focused back into the kiss.

I push her down the bed and hover on top of her, deepening the already intense kiss, if that was even possible. I pull away from her lips and leave trail of kisses down from her neck to her stomach. "Shawn." She whispers under her breath and i look up to her. "Do you want me to stop?" I ask and she shakes her head. "I love you." I grin and continue kissing her, moving back up to her lips. "I love you too." She says in between kisses and rolls me over so that she's on top. Elle removes her sweater, and i do so too. She's stunning even in just a bra, and god was she perfect for me. "You're so beautiful." I mutter, admiring her body. Her cheeks turn rosy and i cup them with my hands to pull her in for another kiss.

Her hands move down to my pants and fumble around the zip before sliding them off. I smirk at her and roll us to pin her down. I move down her body and slide her pants off as well. "Do-do you have a condom?" I ask, my breath shaking. This was my first time having sex but i know it wasn't for her. "No. Do you?" She replies and i shake my head. I kiss her once more on the lips then plop down onto the bed next to her. "We need to get some next thing tomorrow." I laugh and she nods. Maybe not having sex tonight was a good thing for us because i know we both just wanted to get things off our chest. And besides, i want our first time to be special, and not just because it's in the heat of the moment. "Are you going to stay the night?" She turns to face me. "Do you want me to?" I ask. "Yes please." She pleads and i grin, scooting closer to her and cuddling with her. Our bodies mould together as if we were made for each other, and we soon both fall asleep to the sound of our breaths.

Author's Note!

Sorry no smut for y'all but here's your second update of the week as promised. Please vote and comment, it mean so much to me!