airports ;; kim taehyung

ix. email

- the night before taehyung leaves - 

from : taehyung*****@email.com

to : y/n*****@email.com

subject : before i leave

dear y/n,

before i leave, i want to tell you. i'm only leaving for a month. but before i leave you, i have to tell you, i love you. i know you see me as someone different from the man last year. i know you think of me as someone new in your life. i know you don't feel the same way as i do about you. but i love you y/n. i can't imagine leaving without being able to tell you. i'd do anything in the world for you to feel the same way about me, but sadly nothing can change, your memory's still a blur and you don't remember me as the same man. i think your memory being like this is somehow the universe getting revenge on me for kissing you the same night i proposed to another woman, the universe getting revenge on me for falling in love with you the same night i proposed to another woman. but the universe reunited us, even got closure for soo-ah. all i want now is you. 

that night at the party, i didn't feel a spark inside me. every time, every single time you touched my skin i felt fireworks within me, i felt fragile with you, i felt i could be vulnerable yet strong beside you. i can't even express how happy you make me. being near you, beside you, i felt blessed. every time i walked into our cafe, i scanned around for your face. some days, you were talking to leah behind the counter, some days you were rushing around to get out, run errands. but most days, you sat in the same booth, besides the same window, behind the same old laptop typing away while scribbling more and more gorgeous writing in your book. i think every time i saw you in the cafe, i fell in love just a little more. i love you with my life y/n. but i'm leaving. i'll understand that you don't feel the same way, so consider this my last goodbye

with love,

kim taehyung.

sent 22/4/21 8:47pm