Diary Of A Pregnant Teenager. (DISCONTINUED)

what hurts?

" yo. "

" hey baby ... "

Chris cleared his throat when he recognized who was on the other line .

" hey .. Jeanna . you okay? "

" yeah, I'm just calling to see how you were doing .. "

" um, I'm fine. how are you and the baby doing? "

" we're doing good . I - I have an appointment later . are you coming? " she questioned

" you know I always come, baby. " Chris stated with a fake smile.

" okay .. baby, are you sure you're okay? I mean with -- the whole stillborn thing -- . " Jeanna asked .

Chris chuckled and sighed . He never thought that one girl would affect his whole perspective on love .. on everything actually!

Again, Chris always thought that he would be the heartbreaker .. not on the receding end of his doings . He never knew his heart could be so fragile, but did he say anything? ...

" I'm getting there . I'm trying to ignore the feeling . "

" If you need anything, I'm here for you . " Jeanna said

" yeah , I know . thank you . "

***

" Well Jeanna, your baby is growing perfectly fine . you are the perfect size for being 7 months pregnant . Congratulations . "

Jeanna smiled and thanked the doctor as she left the room . Jeanna smiled at me, and gestured me to come over.

" only two more months! aren't you excited? " she smiled

" I am .. very. "

" how's Brielle? "

" I haven't talked to her in a week. " I lied .

" why? you lost a child, too. you should be by her side comforting her. " Jeanna stated.

" she's fine . she has Santo with her, I heard he's a great guy ! " I replied

" aww .. Is little Chrissy jealous of his brother? "

" no. " I started , " I just don't need to waste my time trying to help her and she's blocking me out . there's no point . " I finished

" well, if you love her and that baby, then -- "

" I never did . "

Jenna POV;

" you never did, what? " I asked Chris.

" I never loved her . "

I laughed and pushed Chris by his shoulders . I mean .. he clearly cannot expect someone to believe that !

" what's so funny? " Chris asked

I wiped an imaginary tear from my eye, and sighed .

" you, Chris . you're funny . " I replied

" enlighten me, sweetheart . "

" since day one, I knew I was never the only girl . you would constantly tell me that I was the one for you and all some other shit , and sadly I believed you . -- I believed you to the point where I actually thought you were going to come ' home ' to the nights when you said you would . I would call Santo, ask him if he saw you . ' he's with Brielle right now, do you need him? ' "

" that doesn't really mean anything. I'm with you right now, does that mean I love you ? "

" you know what I find funny? our ' relationship ' . or whatever we had . it's funny because, I never really loved you . I'll admit , I had feelings and I thought you had some back .. but, nah . you were never really in my heart . "