Diary Of A Pregnant Teenager. (DISCONTINUED)

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Brielle POV;

" you got it, B? "

" Yeah. Thanks.  "

After I got discharged from the hospital,  Santo and I decided to clean out her  room. I walked into the room, and sighed.  It is way too soon for this.

" are you sure you wanna go through this now?  "

" huh?  -- oh...  Yes. I'm sure.  "

" how did that talk with Chris go?  "

" good.  I mean,  we realized that we had to push our issues aside and be there for eachother. "

" that's good.  are y'all back together?  "

" no, that's never going to happen again.  "

Santo nodded and smiled.  I remembered what Chris told me about him, but I brushed it off.  I'm just happy, he's still here.

Chris POV;

" I just don't like feeling like this, yo. I'm not the feelings type of person.  It's always been hit it and quit it for me.  I don't know what went wrong with Brielle.  "

Growing up, Joey and I have always been there for each other. He was like the older brother I never really had.  We sat on the bench from playing basketball and he replied.

" Awww,  did little Chris catch feelings? "

I looked at Joey and flicked him off.

" We all warned you, Chris. Brielle is way too beautiful to just be a one time thing. You were setting yourself up for a long term relationship.  "

" I didn't love her,  though. I guess it was when we  lost babygirl ... that's when all the feelings hit.  It's like I knew they were coming, cause once I saw her on the ultrasound and I saw Brielle smiling,  I felt it.  As stupid as it sounds, I felt the little tug on my heart.  "

" What about Jeanna? "

" Nothing.  I -- I didn't feel anything.  I felt bad that I didn't,  then again I was relieved.  I didn't want to go in a relationship or try with Bri  , and I'm still feeling for Jeanna, you know? I already feel shitty for fucking both of them, literally two weeks apart . "

" Did you tell Brielle how you felt?  "

" Nah . " I replied looking down

" Did she ask?  " Joey asked

" Yeah,  I told her that I didn't feel anything.  That I never loved her.  "

" I should really throw this fucking ball at you. You're so dumb sometimes, man! Sometimes I wonder how we are  family.  you fuck up so many times and you always expect to get something out of it ..  in return.  It doesn't always work like that, Chris. You fucked up and avoided telling her how you felt,  but yet you continue to expect that she's going to continued chasing you .. -- "

" it's not like that, Joe. "

" Remember who you're talking to, Chris.  I practically raised you. I knew when you're feeling and I know when you're just wanting sex.  I knew you were in love with Brielle,  but you loved the chase.  I wanted to smack the shit out of you for doing that to that poor girl. Little did she know, she was young .. naive.  she's learning,  Chris.  "

" If she's with Santo, then she isn't learning quickly.  she still has some catching up to do.  "

" Keep thinking that.  she'll slip through your fingers before you can even say, ' I love you.  '  "

Brielle POV:

" Santo! Can you come get this please? "

" Yeah...  uhh, hold on! " he replied.

I sat on the edge of my bed looking at the room that was once suppose to be my daughter's room. I looked at the newly painted walls and thought of all the beautiful that could've been. 

" What were you going to name her? "

" Toni.  "

" Toni ?  You do you know that you were having a girl ... right? "

" shut up! I was going to name her after my dad.  "

" but, your dad's name was Carl.  "

" Santo! " I laughed . " I just like the name Toni.  "

" I'm just kidding, B. I'm just trying to make you smile, a real one.  Not one of the fake ones.  "

" yeah, I know.  Thank you ... for everything.  " I stated.

" yeah,  well.  " He smiled

" what were you doing downstairs? "

" I was   .. fixing the boxes for more room.  "

" oh.  "

I thought back to what Chris told me and an urge was stuck on the back of my mind.  I was never really desperate to find out, but... 

" you okay, B? " Santo asked , interrupting my thoughts. 

" huh?  yeah, I'm fine.  I'm just... I'm gonna go out for a little bit.  I need fresh air.  "

I walked downstairs, grabbed my jacket and ran out the door. 

I hate Chris for messing with my mind

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Hey y'all.

I know it's short, but it's been a long ass time since I updated . I just threw something together, I'm sorry if it's bad.  I'll make the next one better. 

Thank y'all for being patient.

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