I think I love you

Memories

Lessies POV
I'm currently in the hype house pool with Mia.
Ryland and nick went out today so I'm his just gonna be with her.

"So you guys were arguing over a couch?" She says, "yes, I wanted a white one, he wanted a blue one" I answer. "have you been ok Lessie?" She asks.

I honestly don't know how to answer that it just feels like something is wrong but I don't know exactly what it is.
"I don't know" I answer, "wanna talk about it?" I nod, she turns her whole body towards me ready to listen. "It's just I haven't been sleeping lately and I just haven't been feeling myself" "maybe it's anxiety of moving" she says. "Maybe" I say back, "do you maybe think you and Ryland are moving to fast?"

Is that what's wrong? It can't be I love Ryland a lot but is she right?
"Mia you might be right" I answer, "wait- that doesn't mean you're breaking up with him right?" She says scared, "oh no not at all" I answer, "good cause I don't wanna be the one that is the cause of it" "I promise you're not Mia"

I see that Nikita is walking towards the pool area "the bad bitch is here!" I shout, "honey that's you!" She says back, I blush. She sits on the pool ledge, "hug me bitch" she says, "Im wearing a wet bathing suit" I say, "I don't fucking care" she says, we hug.
"I missed you so much" "miss you too"

1 hour later
Me and Mia decide to get out the pool, I wrap in a towel, and go change in my old room.
I finish changing, and go in the bathroom, and start to brush my hair.
I hear the door open, "Lessie?" someone says. It took me a second but I knew exactly who it was.

"In the bathroom baby" he opens the bathroom door, and kisses me. "Hi" I say, he hugs me. "Why are you being so clingy?" I say, "missed you" he hugs me tighter, "Ryland I need to breath" he let's go and I see his eyes gaze out of the bathroom, he walks out the bathroom, "I just noticed that there's so many memories in this room" he says, I nod in agreement.
"Yeah, you saw me in a towel for the first time right here" I laugh, moving to the area where my vanity used to be. "And the the live when you did my makeup" he says.

"Think I still left clothes in here" I open the closet, I see a flannel, a few shirts, and THE dress. "I thought I got rid of this peice of shit" I say pulling it out. He doesn't say anything. "What if we burned it?" I ask, "arson, fun" he says, I smile, and we walk out of the room.

We walk downstairs "Calvin, patty I need you to do something for me" they stand up from the couch, "we do house keeping, lawn care, and pet shit" patty says, "he does the pet shit" he says pointing at Calvin "no we agreed that you do the pet shit, and do I  house keeping" "no we said that you do pet shit and I do house keeping" "no" Calvin argues, "no" patty says, "yes" Calvin says, "hah dumbass" patty says, I laugh at their arguing, "we'll both of you can do this" i say, and give them the dress, "you guys can do what ever you want to it burn it, cut it, sell it go nuts" Calvin starts to laugh "she said nuts" "it's not like anyone's touched yours" I say. Patty and Ryland start to laugh.
"Text me a picture of the finished project, I'll Venmo y'all each one hundred dollars" "ok!" They say at the same time, and run away with the dress.

We walk into the kitchen where Alex, Kouvr, Mia, Michael, and Thomas are. "Why is Calvin, and patty so excited?" Thomas asks, "I gave them a small activity, if you smell smoke then call Nine one one" he nods.
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We stay at the hype house for a few more hours then go home.
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I get in the shower, and wash the chlorine out of my hair, I end up staying in there for a good forty minutes. Just soaking in the water, and getting my mind clear.
I get out and wrap in my towel. Ryland knocks on the door, "it's open" I say, he opens it and peeks his head through, "I wanted to say I love you" he says, I smile. "I love you too" I kiss him.
Why is he being a lot more affectionate than he already is? I love it, but Is he cheating on me and is trying to cover it? No that's not him.
I walk out the bathroom, and change into my pajamas.
I lay down in bed and go on my phone. "Lessie, are you ok?"
Wow the second person that has asked me this today.
"Yeah" I lie, and look back at my phone, I hate lying to him it fucks with me so much. "You're lying" he says, "no I'm really fine" I say, "I can tell something is wrong, you haven't been sleeping, haven't been eating that much" "Ryland I don't know what you are talking about I am okay" I lie again. I can't tell him the truth that will hurt him.
"You can tell me what's wrong" he says sitting next to me on the bed, "it's nothing" I say, he sighs.
"Fine!" I say, I get up from the bed and start pacing the room. "it's just to much for me like we've been together for almost two months now, and I feel like-"
"We're moving too fast?" He says finishing my sentence, I feel like I'm about to cry, I nod.
But after a few seconds the tears start to fall, I pull him into a hug, while crying into his chest. "It's okay"he says hugging me back. He kisses my forehead "I love you so much" I just nod and continue to hug him. "Does this mean we should take a break?" He asks, at that point my heart shattered into pieces. "I don't know maybe?" I say back. At this point we were both crying. "I'll stay with Nick tonight and give you time to think" he says to me, we let go of the hug. I lay back down as he gets ready to leave. I'm still crying harder than before, knowing he can here my sniffles, but I don't care.
He kisses my forehead, and leaves.

Rylands POV
I'm in my car driving back to the hype house. Maybe crying a little. But I love her so much, but I wanna give her some space, but I wanna be with so bad right now. I left her there crying, knowing her she's probably still crying right now. I texted Nick and told him that I'll coming back.
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I open the door of the house, pretty much everyone is in the living room. Nick comes up to me, "dude what happened are you ok?" "I think me and Lessie just broke up" his eyes widen, "wait like not together?" "Yes dumbass I told her I would give her time to think"
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Lessies POV
I go in Rylands closet and put on one of his hoodies, lay back down continuing to cry.
I put the sleeve up to my nose, it smells just like him.
I curl into a ball and cry myself to sleep.

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