I think I love you

go to hell

recap

god fucking damn it. I just need to fucking scream or break something. I see a glass lamp on a desk in the room, I take it and throw it at the wall. and it breaks

I'm so upset, I didn't even know the door opened.

I turn around from the mess I made, and I see Ryland.

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I go and hug him, after a few seconds I realize, and let go of the hug.

 "I told you to stay" I say crying, "I couldn't I didn't want you to be by yourself" he sits on the bed. "why? cause you think I'm gonna kill my self?" I scoff, "Lessie, no that's not why-" I cut him off , "why then? Cause I told you I wanted to be by myself, so I can think" I say raising my tone, he stands up "Its cause you paint this perfect picture that your ok, and you know your not" he says, "I am fine Ryland, Its just hard" I say yelling back at him, "what so fucking hard Alessia?" he says, he never uses my real name, "do you not see my god damn comments? you sound so fucking selfish" I say to him, "I'm selfish? who's been the person that's been there when you get called fucking pregnant, or a whore?"

 "I-" I run out of things to say, "exactly, and maybe the reason that came back here was to make sure you didn't hurt yourself, maybe its because I fucking love you. You changed me so much when was the last time you saw me smoke weed, it was the party right? the only one that should be called selfish is you!" he says pointing a finger at me. 

"Go to hell Ryland" I grab my phone and leave the room. I cry while I'm leaving the hotel. This is me and Rylands first big fight.

hes right when was the last time I checked If he was ok? I've been so caught in myself I didn't notice. I continue to walk, and I run into everyone else. "Lessie are you ok?" nick asks me, and hugs me. "Me, and Ryland got into a fight" I sob. Mia hugs me, "I so sorry beb" "don't be, the fight was my fault" I say. "what happened?" she asks.

Mia, Kouvr, Addison, Avani, Charli, dixie, and I walk away from the boys, and sit in a field of grass. the boys walk back to the hotel.

I start to talk, "I was in the room, and I made my tweet then Kio called me." "what did he want?" dixie says, "he said that I can talk to him anytime if I need anything" "that's annoying why is he trying to home wreck your relationship?"  "not sure, He told me he has feelings for me, but I told him I didn't like him back because I was with ryland" "ooo tea" Charli says.

 "but after my call with Kio I broke a lamp, by throwing it at the wall, then Ryland came in, and  I  just started saying stuff that just came in my head, I said that he only came to me cause he thought I was gonna kill myself" Addison rubs my shoulder, "then I called him selfish, then he stated a fact and called me selfish, and I told him to go to hell"

"so its my fault"I say wiping my tears. "babe, I would usually be on your side but I think you need  to tell Him about the messages from Kio, and apologize" Mia says putting her hand on my thigh. "I agree with you Mia" Addison says. "you guys are right" I get up and walk back to the hotel.

I walk into our room, "Ryland, I'm sorry can we please talk" I see that he's not here.

I call nick,

"where is he?" I say

"chill hes with me"

"tell him to meet me at the luau spot in fifteen minutes"

"um, I don't think he can go"

"why the fuck not?"

"well when you left he came to my room with me and he got drunk cause he thought you were gonna break up with him"

"ll at your room in second"

I hang up, and walk to nicks room.

I knock on the door and nick answers, "hey" I say he lets me in and I see Ryland, "Lets go" I say to him, and put his arm around my shoulder. "thanks Nick" we leave his room. "hey lessie" he slurs, "hi ryland" "you look hot" he goes into kiss me, and I push him out the way "I'm not gonna take advantage of you, while your under the influence" we walk back to our room. 

by this time the sun was setting so I lay him on the bed, and I start to walk out to the balcony to look at the sun, "lessie where are you going?" "just the balcony" "can you come here?" I walk towards the bed and sit down, "yes?" "Lessie you look really pretty, I love you so much, and I can't wait to marry you" I smile, "good night ryland" lay down next to him, and he pulls me closer to him, and falls asleep.

Lessie, and ryland had their first fight, what do you think will happen next? ❤️