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ORTUNATELY, even if not because of me, my squad gets to the third and last round as the third in the ranking table.

And yes, I am happy to be here, but not about how I got here, I feel like I don't actually deserve it.

So when the lunch pause gets announced by mic, I head down to the 1A room with my cup of tea and a lot of thoughts in my head.

I don't understand, it was a horrible sensation, I was seeing everything but I couldn't even move one muscle, it didn't count how much I wanted to, it was like there were strings attached to my limbs that were moving them like they pleased.

Like being paralysed, but mentally, cause my mind couldn't do anything for my body, but my body was moving, it's just that I didn't have the control of it.

Control, that's the thing that scared me the most, I was terrified since control is one of the most important things in my life and quirk.

I can't remember not even one time before today where I didn't have full control over myself, since I was a kid I was taught how I had to be in syntony with my body and have control every single moment of the day in it.

Being so vulnerable, it's scary, and now I understand how important to me it actually is to be in control, it's my shield.

I see a few of my classmates pass in the hallway next to the class, and our winning teams enter finding me already there.<<Tayiou, are you ok? >> Todoroki asks me and his calm and warm voice actually helps me loosen the tension in my body as he walks towards the table I'm at, his question drawing other's attention on me.
<<Yeah it's just that...something happened and i kinda zoned out sorry>>

<<Ame, what happened? >> and there's Midoriya and Uraraka too, others keep on minding their business even though I see a few listening to our conversation, those few being Kirishima, Denki and...Bakugo.

<<The purple boy, Hitoshi, he...>>>

<<He controlled you too, didn't he? >>

I look up immediately, surprised by the green boy already knowing. <<Ojiro told me, his quirk is mind control and if he asks you something and you answer, he can control you>> I sigh having an explanation now but it still doesn't erase how I feel about it.

I sigh of course but at least now I know, still doesn't erase how I feel tho...<<He was disturbed too, but I see you're even more than him, why? I mean he doesn't know what he did so it's reasonable being clueless but->>

<<He doesn't remember? >> why do I remember then?

<<Uhm...no, why? >>

<<Cause I do, I remember everything>> Midoriya looks at me even more confused than before and others start eavesdropping after my sudden reaction. <<So? Why are you scared then, it's not like you're wondering if you did something bad if you remember >> Todoroki speaks now, confused as hell even tho his voice doesn't show it at all like always, but his eyes want an answer from me I see it.

<<I don't know...that- that feeling where I couldn't do anything, I was weak, vulnerable, my body wasn't MY body, I've never felt like that it was horrible, and I don't ever want to feel like that again.. >> I take a deep breath trying to calm myself down since my voice was starting to shake and I certainly did not want to cause a scene now, in the middle of the festival and under all these eyes. <<All my confidence, quirk, the safety of the ones nearby, everything depends on the control I have, being stripped of that is just terrifying... >> the green boy looks at me sad, his big eyes full of understanding as he lays a hand on my shoulder for comfort, Todoroki's gaze on the other side, his was different, I saw that he understood what I meant, as if my words were describing him too, and that was even more comforting than Midoriya's hand.

<<It's ok Akisame, control can be regained, you won't hurt anyone I know it>> I smile at the four in front of me and Uraraka throws herself on me for a tight, TIGHT hug, taking away my breath and breaking the tense atmosphere that we created until a few seconds ago.

<<Thanks guys, for staying by my side, it's always been very hard for me to talk about my emotions but with you it's like a whole different level of easy>> I stand up smiling at them, a weight less on my shoulders, I won't loose control I'm fine, I won't hurt anyone, I don't want to so it won't happen that's how it works, I know it and they know it too so shy bother panicking.

They believe in me, so I believe in myself too, simple.

<<Oh, Akisame, can I ask you something? But answer only if you're comfortable doing so>> Todoroki follows behind me as we walk to the door and I nod waiting to clarify his big doubt. <<The sign on your neck, I mean it's pretty invisible but if you look closely you can see it and it just made me wonder how did you get hurt? Likes it's a very specific "scar">>

Midoriya looks at me, obviously, waiting to see what I'm going to answer, but I look at Bakugo while my hand goes instinctively to my neck caressing the "scar".

Of course he had to ask this while we were going to the door, and of course that Bakugo was standing near it so he heard everything, I knew he heard since he was looking directly to the hand I had placed on my neck.

But he looked...sad, even apologetic, and even if Todoroki didn't mean to make me revive that moment I was feeling sad too, I'll always have Bakugo's hand printed on my neck as a reminder of how far he can go, a reminder that even if he has some moments where he looks and acts like a normal teenager with some temper tantrums here and there, those temper tantrums can be very violent.

But of course, I can't answer Todoroki's question with such a philosophical answer about Bakugo, so a minimal answer was needed, a little white lie. <<Nothing important, just a little kitchen accident from the past>>