𝘽𝙊𝙉𝘿² || 𝖻𝖺𝗄𝗎𝗀𝗈𝗎 𝗄𝖺𝗍𝗌𝗎𝗄𝗂

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AFTER THE STAIN ACCIDENT I haven't seen Midoriya or Iida again, we had to go back to our own agencies, meaning Shoto and I with Endeavor, as if nothing had happened, but I couldn't fake it, I just felt...empty.

Shoto noticed it too, especially when we finally got on the train I didn't go hig our classmates or waved hi at them, I just stayed silently in my place, too ashamed to even look at the people that though about me like some monster that liked seeing others in pain.

No hugs, no jokes, no glances, i just got on the train immediately and took the farest seat in the back of the wagon, hiding from their eyes.

Feeling their eyes on my back that burn holes through my skin to see what's inside my heart, to see if I'm actually the monster they think I am.

But Shoto found me even if I was hiding, he saw me and decided I shouldn't be alone right now and I can't even say how much I appreciate it...he stood by my side as much as he could these days.

When we got back to the agency I was too silent, staying always alone and being moody was something just not normal for me, but there was something else that wasn't alright...

My powers.

I didn't have them anymore.

It was the first time after I got adopted that I couldn't use my powers anymore, I thought that my quirk block was definitely gone when I finally found friends and family, but it came back after that night, and like I told Shoto when we had out little night chat.

When you have a taste of something, it hurts even more to see it get ripped away from you.

Two days without my quirk made me think enough about it, and while my powers were gone, my nightmares came instead of 'em, the same ones I had every night at the orphanage, I don't even know how long it's gonna be till I can go back to normal...

I don't even know why I am like this.

If I can't get over this thing in time I'll have to ask the teacher for a pass, I know they'll give it to me since I told them about this thing from my past but still I feel bad for asking for such a privilege...even if it's an extreme situation.

I'll have to drown in studying to at least compensate with the theoretic part if I can't fight, god did this HAVE to happen right now?

And I don't even have anyone to talk to apart from Shoto, I don't know if Midoriya and Iida are going to tell the rest of the class what happened, if I loose them too I surely won't get my quirk back, I'll just go back to how I was before and I really don't want to feel like that again...to feel so hopeless, unable to do anything, without anyone to rely on.

On top of all that toxic relationship with my childhood and my little misunderstanding with my quirk, as soon as I get out of the train I see another cause of my problems, an explosive, aggressive, loud blond problem.<<Hey I'm...I'm already full of shit I don't need his too, can you just...let's just get out of here please>>

<<Sure, I'll get you home ok? You want me to? >> I nod and Shoto puts his arm on the small of my back guiding me rapidly out of the train station under the alert look of the blond boy, then he just walks me back to my house trying to distract me with some senseless topics, I appreciate him trying but...my mind isn't here.

But when I got home, past the door leaving me alone, I finally faced the actual reality, I was now alone with my thoughs that just over flooded my mind leaving an empty whole in my heart.

It was like a void was forming in my chest.

Void, that's the word yeah.

That's where I have to go now, my void.

But, unfortunately, I couldn't.