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I WALK HEAD LOW IN THE SCHOOL, hood on and this time not to shield me from the rain, hut from some unwanted looks.

As soon as I get to class I go straight to my seat avoiding talking to someone, but for a second I lock eyes with Midoriya and he looks at me...lost, I don't know, it wasn't his normal comforting gaze at all, actually it just made me look down for the rest of the lesson, I just listen to Aizawa explaining how the exams will work.

At the end of the lesson, when All might walks in, I get up and go to him so I can tell him about my little problem since he's way less intimidating than professor Aizawa. <<Excuse me teach, I want to talk to you about something...private>> He nods walking in the hallways followed by me and I wait till the door closes before start talking. <<You know everything about me, the whole school council knows and I know that when I got in here you all accepted some...problems that came with me and that could show up during my time at the Yuuei>> he nods again, trying to understand where I'm trying to go with my words, the same words I've been repeating since last night anxiously waiting for this moment. <<And you also know what actually happened with Stain...>>he opens his mouth ready to talk but I interrupt him, I have to finish my thing or else I won't be able to think properly, I'll just get lost in my words. <<I don't want a special treatment at all, and I never will, but the quirk block that I talked about at the start of the school year...well something happened during the internship and now I'm kinda there again but I swear I'm doing everything I can to get past it but->>

<<Tayiou, it's ok, us teachers already talked about this possibility and we all decided that if it happened it was not problem, take your time, and I hope you'll solve your problem, I'll inform the rest of the council about it at the end of the day>> I take a deep breath and I smile a little at the hero, thankful that he understood my struggle. <<I can assure you that I'll give my all in the written exams so I can compensate the practical skills, thank you, and I'll try to get past it as soon as I can>>

<<It's ok don't worry, now let's go back ok? >> I nod turning around, walking in with the gigantic blond hero next to me, for a second I look into Bakugo's eyes and it seems like the roles are reversed, Midoriya's the one who doesn't want me around now while Bakugo looks at me worried.

I family smile at him trying to scroll away any questions that are gonna come after and I sit down going back to the lesson, ignoring the looks of three boys on my back.

One that was my friend, but now I don't even know what he thinks about me.

One that I didn't know what he thought about me, and that now is my friend, or even a brother.

And one that is in a limbo, going from one end to another depending on how he wakes up in the morning, confusing me even more.

It's incredible how it takes just one second for everything to change, especially when talking about how people view you. <<You're not alone, Ame >> I flinch when someone touches my shoulder and I look behind me seeing Shoto that tries to comfort me, I didn't even notice I zoned out again until the end of the lesson. <<Nobody except us knows what happened, they're still all your friends and they would be too even if they knew, they're just too caught up worrying about the exams>>

<<I know but I feel like it, it's a mental thing I feel lonely>>

<<Well you have a big house, would you feel lonely with... Twenty people in there? >> Ifurrow my eyebrows not understanding what he's talking about but he smiles widely and that's when I know that I'm not gonna like this, he never smiles THIS much. <<Guys Akisame asked if you wanna go to her house to study>> he shouts and all the heads in the class turn to us, that's exactly the looks I was trying to avoid.

I try to look at them, they all smile at me, they look normal...mahbe they really don't know about Stain, bayne I didn't ruin everything. <<For real, Akisame? For real real? >>Denki looks full of hope at me, he's probably one of the desperate ones.<<Yeah, I mean sure why not, yeah>>

<<YES! I WON'T LEAVE SCHOOL AFTER THE FIRST YEAR, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU>> him and Kirishima jump on me, hugging me so tight it sqeezes my lungs, fortunately Shoto looks at me and sees my struggle taking the two boys off of me. <<Calm down, so, when do we start studying? >> he asks making them turn around a little to discuss about it and then they all say today, being desperate because of these exams. <<You okay with today? Since exams are next week and we're kinda...you know, desperate>>

<<Sure, any day is okay, so...everyone at mines today? >> I smile shyly and they all nod excited before going back to their seats, a few hours left and I'll go back home with a flock of hungry students, hungry for books and food, a lot of food. <<Can I come too? >> a hand flies on my desk from behind me as soon as I sit down and a hot breath whispers in my ear. <<Yeah, if you want to>> I turn around while answering and I see Bakugo smirking, I can't help but stare at his mouth since he's so close.

That closeness' short tho, just a second, long enough for me to notice, but not long enough for the rest of the class to see, he goes back to his seat almost immediately and he sits down leaning back with his hands behind his head.

Well today's gonna be a looking day.