idol | taegyu

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(trigger warning : includes bullying)

taehyun sat on his bed, numb. he cried all night until his eyes were dry. now, all that come out him were dry sobs.

he didn't mean for things to turn out this way. he didn't intend to take the argument so far. sure, taehyun was taking the situation a bit too lightly but did things have to turn out this way.

taehyun put his head in his hands. he didn't have the energy to go to school today. he didn't have the energy to work. he, simply, didn't have the energy.

taehyun heard a knock on the door and got up to open. there was only person with him at this point.

"hey...woah you don't look so good." said beomgyu, concern written all over his face.

taehyun merely looked at the ground and beomgyu sighed. "yeonjun is kind and he loves you, i'm sure the both of you will be able to reconcile."

taehyun shook his head. "i ruined our relationship. i said so many mean things. our relationship is damaged beyond repair, beomgyu."

"hey, don't think so negatively. you guys have known each other from a long time, it will take much more than a fight, which was caused due to heated feelings, to destroy your relationship."

"you say that...but what if i don't want to reconcile?"

"what?"

"yeonjun doesn't need someone like me." said taehyun. "i've given him nothing but pain. he's stayed up late, working for me and he even lost his girlfriend because of his overtime. he lost his social life as well. yeonjun loves hanging out with people, you know? but because of his job, he couldn't. it's good that he quit, he's better off this way."

beomgyu sighed yet once again. "you're making it much more complicated than it is. it's very simple, actually. does yeonjun mean a lot to you?"

"...yes."

"then, you should reconcile. stop overthinking about other things. it makes things worse."

taehyun sighed. "i'm going to take a shower."

beomgyu watched as taehyun picked up his clothes and entered the shower.

he wasn't able to get taehyun's words off his mind.

"quit being my bodyguard."

beomgyu knew that taehyun was afraid. afraid that he was going to hurt beomgyu the way he hurt yeonjun. and to think about, it was best to stay away from taehyun if beomgyu didn't want to get hurt.

but beomgyu couldn't. beomgyu couldn't stay away from taehyun. taehyun may be a mess, may be insensitive but beomgyu...beomgyu loved taehyun. much much more than idol.

he knew how he felt but decided to stay in denial because he thought that was for the best. but thinking that there was a possibility beomgyu wouldn't be with taehyun in the near future hurt him.

beomgyu felt scared. he hated this. he hated the possibility of not being with taehyun. but worst, he hated this feeling. this feeling of uneasiness. the high chances of beomgyu getting a heartbreak.

beomgyu's phone rang. he picked up the call and the placed the phone next to him ear.

shit.

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apparently beomgyu had some work so he ended up not accompanying taehyun to school.

"oi, taehyun. heard you had a girlfriend? is that even allowed?"