Can You Fall InLove With Your Best Friend? (Phan)

Chapter Fourteen

Dan's POV

Today, Chris and PJ have to go back to Uni whilst I'm stuck in this hell hole called Hospital...I just don't like it. I mean don't he me wrong the people here are really kind but it's just how white the place is, how it just smells of sick people and medicine...don't ask me what that smells like and the constant check ups drive me up the bloody wall! It's the same every time 'are you ok, what's your pain level on a scale of 1 to 10?' And of course I say a number lower than last time so they can just leave me the fuck alone!! Sorry, I'm just getting sick and tired of being in here...(no pun intended...)

"Well Dan, we hope you get well soon! And text us when your coming out of Hospital!!" Chris says as the walk out of the door...and then there were two.

We both sat there, not awkwardly but just enjoying each other's company in silence, I love that about Phil, the way that we both like the same things, like this!

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About half an hour later, food arrived...yaay.

Today it's spaghetti and mince, I love how it just sticks to the plastic bowl...yummy.

Me and Phil both tuck in and then Phil breaks the silence.

"Umm Dan, can I ask a question and you don't have to answer if you don't want to..." He says quietly.

I take another mouthful of rubbery spaghetti and swallow before answering.

"Sure, what's up?" I reply.

Phil looks worried, I wonder why though.

"So, I know somebody that umm fancies you...I was wondering if you'd tell me who you fancy?" Phil then says again, still quietly.

What?! Somebody fancies...ME?!

Phil's POV

Right, let's see if I can find out if he fancies anyone...even if that means pulling a white lie of sorts because I'm technically not lying because the person that fancies him, is me...

"Well umm, I do fancy somebody in fact. Really handsome, strong, the most amazing facial expressions, kindhearted and takes negativity like water of a ducks back. There just perfect but I don't want to fancy that person, I don't want to hurt that person. I just want to be friends with that person that I like so dearly..." Dan says shyly, so he does fancy somebody, PJ was right...uggh it's probably someone that I couldn't compete with...he barely described me...

"Oh right, well I'm sure that person is super lucky!!" I say as I spoon another mouthful of spaghetti into my mouth, boy does this food taste good!

"So, do you like somebody then?" Dan then questions and I just looks down at my feet.

"Well, I do too, it's a boy, he's the most funniest and happiest guy you'll ever meet, Dan. He's so innocent but still dirty minded which I just find funny. We have all the same things in common, like anime, games, TV shows, same way of thinking. He's just amazing, he's the one for me..." I say still looking down at my shoes.

We just sit in silence for a moment before Dan then speaks up.

"Oh right, well I'm sure that guy will notice soon enough!" Dan says with a smile.

We carry on eating our food which I'm enjoying but I glance over at Dan to see him looked disgusted at his food.

"You know, you don't have to eat it if you don't want to Dan, nobody's forcing you too!" I say chuckling.

"They are!! The nurses!! She keeps saying that I've got to keep my energy up, so eating food will help...but it tastes like shitty rubber...not nice..." Dan says and I just giggle.

"Oh Dan, well I tell you what. As soon as you are aloud out of here, We'll both get some nice food at a restaurant or something, my treat!" I say a little to confidently because I basically just asked him out on a date really subtly...whoops.

"Yeah! That sound awesome! We could go to Pizza Express!! Best. Pizza. Ever!! You an amazing friend Phil, wait no, best friend!!" Dan says and it makes me feel all warm and tingly inside.

My cheeks start to get warmer, sugar I'm blushing! I cover it up by walking over and giving Dan a hug.

He's so warm and cuddly.

I should say it...I should just come out with it and say it, go on Phil, admit that you like him, just do it...COME ON!!

"I-I like you, Dan..." I whisper as I still hug him.

"I like you too, Phil" He whispers back into my ear.

"No...I mean I like you, I like you Dan! Your eyes are beautiful, your amazing tanned skin, your personality it just perfect, we have the same things in common, I like you...so damn much that it just hurts...I was the one talking to you the night you got beaten up, I'm the one who fancies you, Dan..." I say sitting next to him, Dan looks at me emotionless, like I never said anything...

"No...this can't be happening...no, I-I can't. Get out..." Dan says with a single tear sliding down his cheek. What did I do, oh yeah, he rejected me...

"Bu-"

"Get. Out"

"Dan, think ab-"

"NO! Just leave me alone...please"

I stand up and walk out of the door. Out of the hospital. I just walk, I haven't got Dan to save me this time, it's just me with my hands in my pockets and I just walk...

Dan's POV

He confessed...he likes me and I like him but what did I do, I turned him down, now he thinks that I hate him. I hate myself now, I just hate everything about myself...my life my voice, everything I do...now I understand why I got beaten up, not because I'm gay but because I'm just worthless, not worth it, just a nobody...

I start to cry. I don't care that it hurts my ribs but right now, I deserve to feel the pain that Phil's feeling right now. How could I reject him like that! I just want to protect him, he doesn't know what my dad would do if he found out about me and Phil...he would hit me and disown me and then beat the crap out of Phil. It wouldn't be worth risking.

*3 hours later*

I didn't eat dinner, I can't bare to eat it, the 'energy' thing isn't worth it, I feel powerless and just so damn stupid! I can't bare to think what Phil is like right now, he's either brushed it under the rug and doesn't care or, he's so upset...he probably doesn't care, it's me of course so probably not...

Phil's POV

After a long time of walking I finally make my way back to Uni, I must admit I'm a little actually no, very drunk. I'm just one of those people who just drink there sorrows away...

I more of stumble along campus until I see what looks like Dan, oh wait it's Emma.

"Oh Philly, are you drunk?" She says seductively.

"What, uhh no"

"Come with me" she says pulling my arm.

I know what's going to happen and I don't care, i mean, what have I got to loose...