Fatal Addiction [discontinued]

Chapter 18

Raye

I woke up the next afternoon, not really surprised by the vacant space on the other side of my bed. It was most definitely a one night stand and I guess sex wouldn’t hurt.

Well physically, that was true. 

I felt good and my skin was glowing. But morally and emotionally, I felt disgusted but satisfied at the same time.

I couldn’t pin-point the source of my emotions last night or why I even decided to get in the car with this August dude in the first place. It just happened.

I can’t say I’m really proud of myself but I did what I had to. Plus, that was the best nights rest I ever had! Chris was never that rough with me. Neither was the man who took my virginity a year ago. And to be honest, rough is better to me.

Or maybe it only was because I wanted to take out all of my frustrations also.

Whatever it was, it kept me wanting more from him all night long. I don’t know where he ran off to or if I’ll ever see him again but only time will tell.

I’m trying my hardest not to catch feelings for anyone anymore because I don’t want another rerun of the Chris situation.

I mean, why could he wife her up and not me? What was so special about her?

She hasn’t had sex with him, she’s way skinnier than me, her lips are tiny— I can’t lie though, her boobs were huge! But catching feelings is not for me.

This was strictly sex and that’s what I have to keep telling myself.

My mom would be so disappointed in me if she know that I’d had sex with two men in her house. I really need to get my own place. I’m just working too hard on my schoolwork right now.

Besides, I’m not in that much of a rush right now. Although, I do plan to be out of here once I graduate so I probably should start searching for apartments with cheap rent.

Deciding that I was gonna go out today, I did my hygiene routine and got dressed. I needed to have a drink or two and have fun.

I walked into the restroom to apply my makeup and fix my hair up; all that good stuff.

Looking over my appearance, I smiled and winked at myself in the mirror before laughing. I grabbed my phone to look at the time.

I swear I didn’t know it took like 2 hours for me to get ready. It was 5:30pm now and to pass the time, I decided to go out and buy some food. That way it would all be settled by the time I get to the club.

So I can dance around and not have a tummy ache.

I headed to Wendy’s and best believe, I chowed the fuck down!

***

"Bounce it! Bounce it! I’m about to throw a couple thousands!" I danced and sang along to the song. I fuckin’ love me some Trey Songz. He can get it.

I continued to throw my ass back hard until I felt someone come up behind me. Looking back, the lights flashed enough to reveal this guy’s face. He was cute but I wasn’t setting myself up for anymore one night stands.

I politely waved him off and headed to the bar.

"Hit me with the strongest liquor you got!" I told the bar tender excitedly.

He chuckled, “You must be having a good time?”

"Don’t you know it."

He fixed up my drink and handed it to me. I didn’t know what it was but I knew I needed it. Gulping it down, I cleared my throat because of the strong burning sensation that took place afterwards.