Learn to love

Let it out

I resisted the urge to roll my eyes as Snape continued on with his lecture. The man has been going at it for over an hour already. Even Dumbledore didn't make such a fuss.

"On weeks worth of detention." He snapped.

I raised a brow, hoping it was finally over. "It's that it?"

"Where were you?" He asked for the eighth time. "Where did you go?"

"That is none of your concern professor." I replied. "I have explained my reasons and whereabouts to Professor Dumbledore. So if you have finished and sentence my punishment, I will be off to my next class." Leaving him with his thoughts, I rushed down the corridor.

Somewhere along the way, I had a minor detour to the restroom. Having spilled my breakfast out, I washed my mouth and headed out. This was getting worse. It was bad enough I wasn't able to hold anything down, but doing it alone was worse. I knew it was a bad idea, but I needed my friend and sister with me.

Placing my hand on the handle, I took in a deep breath and pulled the door open. 'Great, I forgot I had Ron as my partner in this class.' Ron glanced over his shoulder to me, a scowl on his face. 'It's just 30 minutes Athena.'

"Nice of you to show up." Ron scoffed. "Thought I'd have to do all the work."

I raised a brow, dropping my books on the table. "Since when do you do any work?" Seeing the eye roll, I smirked. "Exactly." The class itself was quick and boring. Ron did everything he could to avoid speaking to me, but then again, I don't blame him. I did threaten to rip his arm off. The moment class was over, I grabbed Hermione and dragged her out with me.

"What's going on?" Hermione whispered, trying to keep up with me. "Athena?"

"I'm pregnant."

Hermione stopped, gaping at me. "What?"

"Don't make me repeat it." I mumbled. "I couldn't hold it in anymore."

"So you tell me?!" She whispered/yelled. "Shouldn't you be telling Sirius?"

"Are you insane?!" I yelped. "How the hell am I suppose to tell him?"

"Like you told me?" She retorted back. "How far along are you?"

"Uhh, 5-6 months I think." I hate to admit I had lost count. "I found out that day you took me to the nurses."

Hermione's mouth dropped. "How are you not showing?!"

"Spell and potions." Leaning against the wall, I slid down. "I don't know how the hell to tell him. Hermione if this gets out, I don't know what will happen to my baby."

She slid down beside me, taking my hand in hers. "You think Voldemort will hurt it?"

"That monster won't hesitate."

"We need to come clean." She stated, quickly stopping me from cutting her off. "Athena, you have been doing this alone for too long. I have seen the change and so have you."

"Hermione, I can't." I looked down at our entwined hands. "I will not allow Harry, you, or anyone I love to get hurt. Not again and not by me."

"You can't do this alone!" She scoffed, jumping to her feet. "You are with child. We can help you." Crouching in front of me, she took my hands in her once more. "Whatever you have done for them, it is affecting you. You are not the same. I don't want to lose you."

Looking into her eyes, I was surprised to find fear and desperation. I have never seen her like this. "Alright. Alright, Hermione. You win."

'Fuck Athena, what are you doing?!'