Where I Lost There I Found

Chapter 10

Sometimes emotions are like ocean. An ocean where there are lots of things that comes and settles down. It includes lots of things within itself. Many a times we are not able to segregate them in an orderly manner. Emotions flow or leaking can be defined as loneliness. A lost feeling. Next session was for loneliness.

But I never knew that I was a lonely person. I looked at him. As the mirror just drew few letters on the mirror. It did not display anything down there. I was confused. He stood up and walked into the mirror. I was amazed. This place sucks. I don't think it is true that this piece of shit was imagined or designed under my imagination core. But what was amazing this time. He didn't gave a suspicious look or asked me to follow him. I guess he understood that I am not dumb enough to not realize that I can follow him without even his commands. I wanted to tell him that I don't want commands as I am human. Not a robot or computer.

I stood up and walked towards the mirror. As leaned my body towards the mirror. I got my head banged rather than getting inside. I was confused. If correctly analyze the situation, I should enter the mirror. Get emotionally down, find the reason for killing myself and then heart break and end. But now it's different I am not able to enter. Ok lets try it once more. Sigh sigh... I stepped and I did not want to bang my head so placed my hands over the mirror. I tried hard to pass my hand through it. Unfortunately, I was not able to. I was screwed up now. I wanted to call him out. Imagine the fun fact I don't know his name. Hmmm. 

Ok I am strong girl and I can do it. These words are easy to say but hard to formulate. There was a huge noise of someone banging the door downstairs. I ran down without even giving a thought. Because all I felt was, it was him. I felt maybe he is trying to mess with me so probably he acted so. I wasn't angry a feeling of eagerness laid all across my heart. I went down and there was no one, nor a door. Are you messing around me huh! Please stop it and come out I don't appreciate such jokes. There was no voice. All the bloodstains around the floor had vanished and the whole house was back like new one. I walked back towards the room. And to my surprise there was no small entrance. No mirror. No body. Everything's were back to normal. My breath was turning fast and I was starting to doubt myself a lot now. Things are making me feel more pathetic. The words are getting harder. And speech were turning less. My mouth and mind has started to shut. Things were looking fine here now. I walked all around hoping for something. I waited down there. Feels like days had passed. Not able to justify myself.

The whole time. I was not afraid of getting hurt again. All I was worried was will I be able to  meet him again. He was different, his words were different. I didn't knew his name just knew about his looks. My heart wished only one thing was to meet him.  My heart urged more.. All I was waiting for him with  less of frustration for leaving me alone and more of worry that was he alright!? ... longing for him...