The light within -Snupin-

Chapter 14

They waited until their breathing became even again but didn't move an inch from one another. Chests were rising heavily up and down and he could still feel the breathing on his cheek. Their lips were plump and redder than normal.

Did Remus really kiss Severus? It's not like he complained when their lips collided but it came out of nowhere. Severus' face gave off a small blush and he ran his thumb over the swollen lips while avoiding the gaze of the man in front of him. Remus picked up on his behaviour and shook his head, lifting Severus' chin with his finger so that he was now looking in his black eyes.

'I shouldn't have done that without your permission,' Remus said nervously hoping that he won't back out because he was really starting to like him.

'Don't worry. I don't mind.'

'Does that mean I can do it again?' he waited hopefully for an answer and Severus only grew hotter in his face but nodded. A smirk crept on his face while pulling him into a kiss again, their lips brushing.

Unlike the other one, this one was less with lust and more with love. It didn't last as long as the previous kiss either but they both didn't seem to mind.

The silence between them suddenly became uncomfortable and Remus shifted back a bit, giving Severus some distance.

He scraped his throat, trying to find some good words to say but didn't find any. Severus apparently didn't know what to do either and it looked like an eternity before Remus pulled the boy in for a hug. His arms sneaked around the back to press him even closer to his body and Severus stood there with his arms hanging next to him, clearly not exactly sure what to do. After a while he relaxed in the hug and quickly made use of his arms too.

They didn't have to talk at the moment, the silence was speaking for itself and it was amazing to have someone with whom you didn't have to fill in the blank spaces. Talking was not necessary.

Remus slowly released him from his arms.

'I should head back. My friends are probably wondering where I am.' He wanted nothing more than to stay here with Severus the entire night, just cuddling and falling asleep with him in his arms but it would raise suspicion and he was not in the mood for that. Pads could never drop the subject before finding out where he was and he should know better than anyone else. Remus was gone one time the entire night with some girl. They didn't do anything because he wasn't comfortable with that but they stayed up talking and the next morning, Sirius wanted to know and refused to give up. Eventually he told him so that he would stop bothering him which worked.

'Yeah. That would be wise.' Remus' gaze drifted off to his left arm again and Severus tugged the sleeve.

'Goodnight Remus.'

'Goodnight.'

He watched as Remus turned on his heels and walked away, leaving him alone on the Astronomy Tower. The half smoked cigarettes were on the ground and Severus pulled out another one from the little box in his hands while the Gryffindor boy was walking down the stairs.

He muttered the password and the painting went open, creating the little passway to get to the common room. The room was empty except for Lily and James.

'Ey mate. Where have you been all night?' James' arm was draping over Lily's shoulder and they were cuddling against one another in front of the fireplace.

'Just went out for a quick walk.' Lily eyes him suspicious but gets back to the book laying on her legs.

Remus made his way towards the dormitory before James started talking again and he rolled his eyes.

'Moons, come sit with us.' He didn't want to be with them. He wanted to be alone with his thoughts to think about what the hell had happened. What did this even mean? They weren't dating or anything and only shared one kiss. Remus sat down, trying to sit as far away from the couple.

'Why do you smell like cigarettes?' Lily suddenly asked. His eyes shot up at Lily and he tried to hide his blush that was heating his face. How could he make such a stupid mistake and how can he possibly explain himself.

'I ummm....smoked?' It came out more as a question like there was a wrong answer to it. She raised her eyebrow and gazed at him for a few seconds.

'Alright,' she said with a sigh before reading as if nothing happened. James didn't say anything but winked at him.

'I'm going to take a shower.' With that, he stormed out of the common room and quickly found the bathroom to get rid of the cigarette smoke. He prayed that Lily didn't know that Severus smoked because they were friends not so very long ago, better said, they were best friends before that incident. He shook his head to try and gather his thoughts. He stripped down his clothes and turned on the shower head. He waited not so patiently for the water to get warm and then stepped under it the moment it got hot. Remus' aching muscles started relaxing and he leaned his head against the cold wall. It was weird. Everything was weird.

He managed to screw up the mission in record time and noticed himself falling for the greasy haired man who he is supposed to hate. He couldn't deny his feelings anymore, especially after this and knew he had to continue with the orders Dumbledore gave him even though he wanted to drop out of it now.

His thoughts wandered off to the moment they were on the Astronomy Tower. Severus' hands that ran through his hair while his warm body pressed closer and closer to him. How he was slammed against the wall after the heating argument and the tension they had when they looked in each other's eyes. His breathing on his neck while talking with that low, seductive and silky voice. Severus had no idea how much power he had over Remus in that moment and definitely didn't see Remus' legs trembling from lust. He had to hold himself in not to rub his half hard erection against Severus' thigh because he wanted to take things slowly. He wanted to show how much he cared about him and that he wasn't just someone who he tried to get in his bed.

Remus could already imagine the Slytherin boy under his body moaning from sensation. He imagined how he would arch his back, scrape his nails over Remus' back and throw his head back in pleasure. His black hair that would fall in front of his face and Remus who would push them behind his ear to see his face more clearer. He was pulled out of his fantasy when he noticed his cock getting hard.

'Shit,' he whispered to himself. He couldn't jerk off over Severus because that felt utterly wrong but he couldn't help himself. Remus bit on his lower lip and his hand slowly wrapped his fingers around it. He grunted when he started moving up and down at an even pace. This was so wrong but it felt so good.

His thoughts drifted off to the boy he had just made out with. The way he licked his lips after they pulled apart from each other, the soft body pressing firmly against his and the little moan he made from delight was enough to throw him off the edge. Remus' hand went faster and faster, pulling on the foreskin.

The bottom lip stuck between his teeth almost started to bleed from the pressure he had on it, trying to keep his moans and groans quiet.

'Fuck.' He threw his head in his neck and the warm liquid sprayed the showerwall. Why did this man have so much power over him?