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The next morning I wake up and Jax is gone. Oh shit. OH SHIT! He's not supposed to leave. Chibs is going to fucking kill me. I hurried out of bed and went to the bathroom to grab my bra from yesterday.

"Well good morning darling. Looking for something?"

I look up and a very naked Jax is smiling down at me. Shower, duh. Damn I'm a dumb ass. I just stood there, like a dumb ass. I swear I can not win today.

"I um, well. I thought you left and I panicked. You aren't supposed to leave and I was going to look for you and well. Hi. Um good morning. It seems I have found you. I'll be going." I tried to turn but was very stuck in my tracks. How does this man look good after being almost dead.

He just chuckled and grabbed a towel. He wrapped it around his lower half. I tried so hard not to watch but um wow. That's all I can think for right now.

I caught myself before he turned back around and spun myself around like I wasn't looking the whole time.

"You can look now. I promise I'm covered." He is sadly covered. He went to touch my face and I winced in pain. Shit. He punched me. I lied saying I was fine but he's got a mean right hook. I'm sure it is now visibly bruised and the guilt I didn't want him to feel, he now does. I can see it on his face how sorry he is.

"I didn't mean to. I wouldn't hurt you like that, especially after you'd been there for me. It looks like your cheekbone is bruised and badly swollen." He lightly rubbed his thumb across my face. It hurt but I just calmly let him so he would feel better. It wasn't bad, I could see out that eye and that's all I cared for.

"Jax. It's okay. I'm fine and honestly didn't know I was hurt till just know. It didn't hurt last night and you didn't mean to. Do you want to talk about it?" We had moved out of the bathroom and I was sitting on the bed. I covered my eyes so he could change. I didn't want him to catch me staring so I tried my damndest not to peek.

He told me of how he found his wife dead and how his mother murdered her. The way he talked about her made me sad. He truly cared for her and it showed. He was now clothed and laying on the bed staring at the ceiling. He told me of how he killed his mother and all he wanted to do was end it. Everything in his world was gone. Everything.

I started to tear up because I truly felt his pain. No one should have to go through that and I can not imagine having to kill my own mother. I just laid next to him. I wanted to calm him but wasn't sure how.

"It's okay. I know that sounds stupid but everyone has their demons. You got felt a rough hand and had to deal with it the way you knew how." I was looking at him now. He turned his head to look my direction. I saw a small smile start to form and we sat there staring at each other.

The room felt more peaceful than before. He leaned his head on mine and closed his eyes. He very quietly let out a thank you. I closed my eyes and just let his shower smell take over me.

"Guys I'm cookin if you want breakfast!" Chibs bursts into the door but takes a few steps back. "Ah. Jacky boy. How you feelin?" He didn't even seem to mind the weird state we were in.

"Ah. A shower helps get that hospital feel off. Breakfast would be nice but I think I want to stay in here for the morning." I nodded at him that I felt the same. Chibs just nodded and walked away. The door was now wide open and any peaceful moment was gone.

I got up to take a shower and change before breakfast. I grabbed for a towel to dry myself and realized he took the only one in there.

"Jax! You took the only towel. Will you find me another one?" I got no answer. "Jax?" I started to worry a little and decided it was best to peek in there. I dried off best I could and stuck my head out the door. Breakfast was on his desk but Jax seemed sound asleep.