The proposal

Chapter 25

" Tanya Montez." The voice of the wonderful MC replied I look at him panicking all the way how am I supposed to do this, how am supposed to do this when I am afraid of public speaking I am scared of that platform.

" I don't know if I can do this Jason."

" You can, I believe in you now go, everyone is waiting for you. " he replied pushing me forward, its good that he believe in me but do I believe in myself that much to actually go up there and deliver that speech, almost all my life I had been avoiding stuffs like this and now the moment as finally arrived where am about to face it its like a chapter that is way hard to close, I am about to do this something I thought I will never ever be doing again how did I make the mistake of agreeing to do this, how will I back out of this, I look around and out of all the many people who are present here seems to be waiting on me patiently, they all seems to be waiting for me to take that stage including Alex, who was busy smiling at me from head to toe, it feels kind of good to see him giving me that warm smile but will this be enough to give enough strength to do this, I have never told Him about my fear of public speaking no one know about this except my aunt, but now it all turns down to me, I had to do this everyone is looking forward to hear me, from my family, friends and strangers and host lot of others. There is no backing out now, there is no turning back I just had swallow my pride and do this.

" Ok you can do this Tanya, you can do this." I whispered as I  made my way closer to the stage. Seconds later I finally finally arrived on the stage with the help of the tall handsome MC, now here I am present before a microphone standing a few inches before a huge crowd staring right back at me with there intimidating eyes, some were kind eyes, some were judge ful eyes waiting for me to slip while some waiting for me to do the impossible.
My heart is pounding in my chest like Congo drum, cold sweat was washing me but still there is this tiny confidence in me pushing me telling me I can do this and trust me it's enough for me to pull off a small smile and stop my poor knees from wobbling, I glance at my finances again, this time he had make it the front, and I couldn't thank him enough, his gracious smile warms me up telling me I can do this quietly, he smile at me before he cheers me with his glass of Champagne and I couldn't help but pull of a bigger and better smile.

" good night ladies and gentlemen..." I pause as murmur utters around the room, its going to be hard but I only can be myself.
" ah... Where do I begin.... There is so much to give thanks for and so much to also talk about. But I only can start here by breaking it down..." I had to do this the easy way.

" I am Tanya Montez, I know almost  everyone supposed to know who I am by now but still I want to take the time to reintroduce myself to some who are yet to know me and who has already do, I was born in new York America but was raised half my life in England, I was an adopted child to a very kind and loving woman, she was my World, she was the sweetest person I had ever met, she is someone I will never forget... She gave me so much reason to move on each day even doe she wasn't my birth mother.. " I pause as I look around, everyone was listening keenly some was in awe of my story already which pumps me to go deeper I guess its not as hard as I thought, I know I had never talk about my life story in the open before but I think it's time, time for the world to know my story and how I had gotten here.
" She was a gem, she was so kind and loving, but there comes the roughest part of my life when she was taken away from me..." My voice eventually brakes then thinking about her death and how much it still affects me, God knows she didn't deserve to die like that, A tear actually escape but quickly I clean it, my gaze met Alex  and he was in verge to join me but I stop him by a wave of my hand.

" But doe I lost her unfortunately I know that there was another door that was open waiting for me to step in, may god bless my aunt soul and may her rest in heavenly peace, because of her strong believe and love she instill in me I took a step forward and then I met my birth parents..." I take deep breathe looking at my dad who was standing next to my mother along with Jason and Jessica, they all smile at me kindly knowing how much I had grown on them ever since I had met them. " It wasn't and easy road, it was so hard, so rough and I was so angry, confuse, sad and hurt when I first met them, I had so many questions, so many anger and frustrations I had pull out on them, I was mad for valid reasons, I was so upset and hurt to the point I said crazy stuffs, stuffs I didn't even mean, some I even regret, I was mad at all of them including after meeting Alex...." Another tear slip and I quickly clear them I still remember that night and morning after it was traumatizing and humiliating, I still can't it get out of my head. " But I guess God has a reason why he chose this path for me, he had perfect reason why he bought me back in there life's I realised then he had plans for me, it wasn't the end for me, he had seen me suffered and cried most days and he was going to make everything better it was just not so clear to see, oh doe there there was ups and downs, challenges after challenges he made me stronger and some how the relationship between my parents and family members began to strengthen, I got closer towards them from the love of my finances Alex and the strength my aunt build in me, I began to grasp the taste of forgiveness and I began to move on each day taking it at one step at a time..."