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I loved you

I waited but no one was there
I frantically looked around
Seeing you no where around
I was alone in a isolated place
With nothing for which i have to race
World was moving
But i was frozen
I thought you were spring in my cold life
But how wrong i was
I loved you
You betrayed me
I trusted you
But you never believed in me

You broke the walls i made
You gave me a breath to live
But also took it away
When you found someone else to play with
You proved to be more cruel than anyone
You gave some people hope
But also took it from them
when you become bored
To you everyone living was a doll
For you to play
And throw away when become bored
I was one of those fools
I was one of those used dolls.

There is something wrong with me
As now also I want to see you
Even though i know
it is a stupid wish
I always think why are you like this
I wish you didn't took interest in me
To add me in your list of used ones
I wished i can say i hate you
But no one can change the truth
That you were my first love
And maybe last.

I know even if i leap though time
And gain access to change the past
I will do the same stupid mistake
Of loving you
Because even if all
you said was a lie.
I want to live that lie
I wish for that lie to be truth
Although i know that wish
can never come true....
I know that i ought to find someone new,
But all i found myself is thinking about you.

I can't go on like this,
I need your touch
You are the only one,
i have ever loved.
I know i should move on life,
But why i cant see anything
but darkness without you in my life,
When someone ask me about you
I faked and said ,
i am glad to let you go
But why cant i believe myself
When i can make
everyone believe in me....
Why i have to love you? ,
Even though i know you have used me..
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