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Cheryls POV
My costar and I were on set in New York, in the middle of shooting our new film. I was so excited for this film. The days were longer that we anticipated and the shoot ran long. But I knew this film was gonna be good. So I sacrificed. I gave up dinners and evenings with Toni. I must have called her almost every day from set, apologising for that fact that I would be home late.
I don't think she liked the long hours. And on top of that, my costar was my ex. And also, we were playing lovers in the film. Her name is Eleanor Scarza. We both rose to fame at similar times and ended up dating for around a year.
It's been five years since we broke up and I've been as happy as ever with Toni for the past three years. When I asked her if she would be okay with me working on a movie with Eleanor, she was slightly conflicted at first. But almost instantly, she realised that it was just for my career and Eleanor meant nothing to me anymore.
And so filming started. And it's been going great. Eleanor and I have worked just fine together as costars, both of us just wanting to create a magical film.
And then, towards the end of shooting, I was in my dressing room getting ready to go home for the day when my director knocked on my door.
"Hey," I said. "What's up?"
My director, Jack, looked at me with consideration before speaking.
"So, here's the thing. The film's going great so far. It's really all coming together, exactly the way I envisioned it. But I think we're missing something. Something that the viewers will need to understand the raw magnetism of the attraction between yours and Eleanor's characters."
I pause for a second. "I'm not sure I understand."
Jack looks at me pointedly. "Cmon Cheryl, you know exactly what I'm talking about. Look, I think we need a love scene."
I feel myself pulling back, trying to take what he just said in. I can't do that. Surely I can't? I mean, it's just acting and it's not like we'd be having actual sex. But this would be good for the film. What Jack was essentially wanting for this film was a graphic portrayal of female desire. Women loving women. Which is something that is rarely portrayed in the film industry. This would be important.
So in a moment of excitement, I put my hand out and said "i'm in".
Jack clapped his hands and then took my hand and shook it. "Fantastic. This is going to be brilliant.
What I should've done was tell him that I had to think about this. What I should've done was told him that I have to ask my girlfriend. And what I should've done from there was tell Toni about it the moment i got home.
I should've told her what I wanted to do and explained why I wanted to do it. I should've shown that her that night, that her body was the only body I was truly interested in deriving pleasure from.
But I didn't.
Instead, I went home and went into the kitchen to look for some food to eat.
Toni came in and hugged me tightly. "How was shooting baby?"
"It was good. Im a little tired but it was good."
And that was it.
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"Action!" Jack yelled. The set was closed. It was just me, Eleanor, Jack, the cinematographer and a couple people working lighting and sound.
