I Am Cannibal - Ziall

Hunger

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Niall's Pov

"Well I guess I can start off from where my dad died, it was a late Saturday night and my mom was worried sick about him. Same goes for my brother Greg, she thought nothing of it and instead stayed up for a few more hours. Eventually she started to panic and worry more, until we got that one phone call..." I trailed off, looking away staring at nothing. "The police had called and told us that my dad was involved in a car accident, he was under the influence at the time which was probably the cause of all this. I was only eight years old, so I really didn't understand how my father died. Anyways, my mom neglected me and ignored me for quite some time after his death. Greg did the same, they both mourned their deaths and they got mad at me because I seemed a little to apathetic at the time. But I was only eight years old, what more could they possibly want?"

A tear slid down my left cheek, I breathed shakily and continued, "Well moving on from that ordeal. I started to notice I acted out of the ordinary from the other boys. I started to grow feelings and attraction to the same sex, I was really confused and I didn't know how to react to it well. These feelings popped up in the seventh grade, so I was around the age of thirteen or fourteen at the time. And before you start asking questions yes... I'm gay." I sighed, "Eventually word got out and I was bullied and tormented by it every single day. Running home and spilling my problems to my family really wasn't an option, so I kept it locked up away from them. Day by day a new insult ringed into my ears, 'hey look it's the fag - you want this cock? Go die, nobody likes you.' I got use to it, so it's alright now."

I played with my hair a little, trying to ease up my nervousness to the boys. "Moving onwards, I was finally settled down to the school's loser. But I was one of the smarter kids at school, so not all ended up bad. Plus I got to meet my two best friends Ciel and Misa, they're the best." I smiled proudly, but Zayn just glared at me; geez, I sense a little jealously... "One day I came home and spilled the beans to my brother and mom, I cried and broke down right in front of them waiting for them to kick me out the house. I felt disgusted with myself, I was never really proud of my sexuality, what would they think, would they kick me out, would they disown me? I was swimming in a pool full of possibilities, I was paranoid when in reality they've come to accept me for who I am. It surprised me to see my mom cry, tears of joy and accept me for who I was. Greg immediately did the same to me as well, at least now I could run to my family whenever I had any problems.

Still though, the bullying never stopped, a few times Ciel and Misa would stand up for me when they harrassed me or threatened me. A few new bruises everday, and brand new lies towards my family when they would question them. It's not that bad anymore, since..."

I smiled weakly to myself, "Since Mike died." I said coldly, staring into Zayn's soul. He looked nervous and turned away from my gaze.

"But that's beside the point, everything's better now and I wouldn't want it any other way. Well, except for Zayn's possessiveness." I rolled my eyes. I finished the story and waited for any questions, but they just stared at me in awe. Was it something I said? Suddenly I got tackled onto my bed, devoured by hugs and a few tears. Why would they shed tears over me, they did nothing to be honest. I swear this day gets weirder and weirder..

"Guys, why are you comforting me?" I asked.

Louis stood up, wiping away a tear. "Because I didn't realize how much you went through. I've been giving you hell when you already had hell to begin with. I'm so-sorry Niall." He hugged me once more, I awkwardly returned the favor and said "There, there." What else was I suppose to say?

"You aren't the one who's been completely giving me hell." I glared at Zayn again. Damn, now I'm turning into a bitch towards him. Zayn just stood there innocently, until his head snapped up and he went into some kind of animal poisiton. What the hell? "Zayn are you okay?" He looked into my eyes, but the once creamy chocolate eyes I've known, are now covered in a cloud full of darkness. His pupils grew huge, and I could see the hunger in his eyes once more. I looked over at Liam, but he had the same hunger in his eyes.