why i might quit

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Dear diary,

I might quit.

Yes I know that's a big deal this band is such a big part of my life and I love the fans and I love the boys.....one of them even more but that's not important right now. It's just getting too much

I shouldn't feel like this all the time I feel weak and tired and unhappy. So for the past month or so I've been debating leaving the band.

I've scheduled a meeting with simon and the rest of management later today I'm going to talk to them about it.

They probably won't let me leave but maybe they might give us some time off when tour is over....we all definitely need it.

I'm hoping simon won't tell the boys I'm not ready for them to know.

I feel really selfish wanting to quit

I would be letting down the boys

I would be letting down the fans

But if I don't leave now then I might not make it much longer.

I hope they will all understand

I hope they don't hate me

I hope they aren't mad

I hope the boys still want to be my friends because I love them, I couldn't be without them.

Anyways I'm going to go out with the boys for a bit to explore then I have my meeting. I'll tell you what happened when I get back

Louis put the diary in his suitcase before shoving it under the bed. He grabbed his jacket and went and joined the rest of the boys who were downstairs in the restaurant. "Do you want to grab any lunch before we leave?" Liam asked as Louis came over.

"No, I had something up in the room" Louis lied, the boys nodded and they left the table Zayn pulled Louis back "eat this please" he said handing Louis an apple, as they walked Louis slowly nibbled on the apple. Once they were outside Louis finished the apple and threw the core into the bin "thank you" Zayn whispered to him as they walked next to each other.

They pretty much spent the day at the park kicking about a football but at lunch time a few fans recognised them and within seconds 5 girls turned into an entire fleet of teenagers. "We better go" a security guard said to them leading them away from the park and down the street. All the people began to run towards the guys, there was no way they would make it back to the hotel, "go in here and i'll call for a car to come get us" the guard said.

The five boys went into the shop that was just pointed out to them. Once they were inside the guard told a worker what was going in and they locked the door just as the swarm of fans got outside. They took a moment to look around and realised they were in a cafe "let's grab some lunch while we are here" Niall suggested.

They sat down and all got ready to order some food. Louis looked down at the menu everything looked so big, definitely more than he could convince himself to eat. "I just need to the toilet quickly" he mumbled before walking off towards the toilets, once he was in there Harry appeared as well "just thought I should wash my hands after playing football" he smiled looking over at Louis.

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