because he didn't love me

how i managed to stay

Dear diary,

I managed to stay.

The two months were up and I needed to tell simon my decision.

I told him I would stay

He said that I had made the right decision but I know he was only thinking about himself in that situation

But I do know that it was the right decision for myself

I just got back a few minutes ago and now I'm going to go let Zayn, Liam and Niall know.

When they saw this they read the part about me wanting to leave and we talked through it all. They said that if I wanted to leave I could and they wouldn't be mad they would support me and help me.

The whole month leading up to the meeting that I had to make my decision they helped me talk through my options.

In the end they said that I should go in and say that I would stay but only if we got more time to see our families and that we could keep our doors unlocked.

I was scared going into the meeting and Zayn and Liam waited outside while Niall took Harry out to walk around the city we were in.

I walked in and told them exactly what we had planned.

The end agreement was I would stay, we would get to see our families for a week every 2 months and the doors of out hotel rooms were never to be locked from the outside unless there was a security risk.

I was rather happy with the outcome and so were the other boys. Harry was a bit confused about Simon's sudden change in the rules and stuff but he was happy about it so didn't ask questions about it.

I'm actually going home today because we have a break in tour and I think it's time I told my mum what's been going on.

I should probably go make sure my bags are on the tour bus so that we can leave for the airport, my flight is the first one to leave and I don't want to be late.

He closed the book and put it in his rucksack before looking round the hotel room incase he left anything and then he went down to the bus to wait for the other guys to come down. "You excited to go home?" Harry asked as he came down to the bus, "Very, you?"  Louis replied, Harry nodded and they began talking about the plans they had  for the next week while they got onto the bus together as the other boys came down and joined in with the conversation. 

By the end of the day he was back home, as he walked through the door he hugged his mum and sisters so tightly. He missed them so much, they were the best people in his life along with the boys it was so hard spending so much time away from them. They had dinner together as Louis listened to his sister's tell him all the stuff they had been doing since they last saw each other.

As it got later the twins went to bed, Louis went and read them a story even though he knew they didn't do that anymore as they were a lot older than they were when he left but they didn't stop him. They loved having him back and would do anything just for a few extra minutes with him. After saying goodnight he passed Fizzy and Lottie on the stairs as they were going to their rooms, they said that they were going so he could have some time with mum and they said goodnight.