because he didn't love me

how i got rid of my girlfriend

Dear diary,

I got rid of my girlfriend

Eleanor is just my friend now, no more fake girlfriend

Of course the fans are just going to know that we broke up they won't know anything about how it was a stunt....well they kinda know that all ready but it's not going to be public information that it was a stunt

Simon told me that we could announce it today and I genuinely can't wait, me and Eleanor are going to get a cake and celebrate after let's just hope no paparazzi sees us together because that might be a bit suspicious.

He chucked the book into his suitcase and took his suitcase down to the tour bus as they would be travelling to a new place tonight. "Hey, future ex boyfriend" Eleanor smiled as she walked over to Louis hugging him, "hi, are you ready to be free" Louis asked, "I'm so ready for you to be free" she corrected him.

"I've got to say I might actually miss being your boyfriend" Louis admitted, "and I'll miss being your girlfriend, its definitely been an experience" Eleanor replied as they walked through the hotel. They decided it would be best if someone else got them cake and they stayed in the hotel because then there was no chance of press seeing them together ruining the idea that they were about to break up in just a few hours.

"We will still stay friends right?" Louis asked, "hmm I don't know....maybe but only because I can't go without seeing the dogs" she smiled. "Ah that's true, wait does that mean I now have to pay you to walk the dogs" Louis laughed, "it's fine I'll give you mate rates" she replied laughing too. One of the security guards appeared with a cake and placed it down in front of them, they thanked him and they began to eat it while talking about everything and anything.

"I can't believe this is actually happening how do you think they are going to announce it?" Louis said as they walked through the hotel gardens, "I don't even know maybe it will be an article or something" Eleanor replied, "yeh probably" Louis agreed. They continued talking for a while until one of the people that worked for the pr department walked over to them.

"I thought you guys would want to see this" they said turning their phone around so Louis and Eleanor could see the page that was open. At the top there was a picture from one of the pap walks they did, it was titled "Louis Tomlinson & Eleanor Calder Break Up After 3 Years Together" the article was dated today and went into a description about how both Eleanor and Louis had grown apart due to his stressful schedule, the two reportedly came to a mutual agreement and hope to still be friends.

They both smiled at each other "I guess this is over then, you are officially my ex-girlfriend" Louis said, "I've never been this happy to call someone my ex-boyfriend" she smiled as they hugged each other. "Well I guess as a newly single woman I can go mingle now, I should probably get back home anyways, but promise you'll call me soon" Eleanor said, "I will, have a safe trip back" Louis smiled.

Louis went back to his hotel room, Harry was waiting in the room half asleep on the bed. Louis took off his top and trousers, now that Harry knew about his scars he didn't have to hid it, he could finally sleep without burning alive all night. He got into bed next to Harry. "Waited for you" Harry mumbled as he cuddled up to Louis "where have you been?" He added sleepily.

"With El" Louis replied, "oh" Harry sighed quietly, "We have officially broken up, that's why we met, to celebrate being free from that lie" Louis explained, Louis felt Harry's body relax a bit. "Harry can I ask you something?" Louis asked, Harry nodded slowly, "why do you spend the night with me?" Louis asked.

But he got no reply, Harry was already fast asleep on his chest. Louis gently moved Harry's hair so that it wasn't all over Harry's face, and he just couldn't stop himself, he let his lips press up against Harry's forehead.

"I love you" He whispered into the darkness of the room and he fell asleep holding onto Harry. The next morning Harry went to shower before getting changed.

I love you

I said it out loud

I know he didn't hear but it almost felt liberating being able to say it with him there in my arms.

The things I would do to hear him say it back...

I love you Louis...

It would sound so good

4 simple words

I wish I could hear them being said to me.

Maybe one day he might love me back

I need his love, I crave it all.

I'm an idiot in love

Louis put the book away as he heard the shower turn off. Harry came out the shower in just his towel, Louis tried to keep his eyes from scanning down Harry's body, he quickly got up and went to the bathroom so that he could shower as well. He needed to be quick as they had to get ready to sound check.

All of today there's been other news articles coming out about mine and Eleanor's break up. Many were the same as the original one posted but others were making up theories.

There were some saying she had cheated on me. Spoiler alert technically that was true since she slept with other guys.

There were some saying I had cheated on her.

Some of them were saying that the person I was cheating on her with was Harry.

On the topic of Harry, the fans have been going crazy over the news, saying that it was because larry is coming out.

Some fans were disappointed about the breakup, loads of them were talking about me and Harry, it was trending on twitter.

I should message El and check she's doing okay, there's some people saying some mean things.

Louis put the book away and got out his phone, he decided to give her a call instead so that they could talk properly. They spoke for quite a while and Eleanor asked Louis if he had spoken to Harry about it yet to see what he had thought about all the tweets. Louis hadn't even thought about doing that and decided that he would do it when they were in the hotel room that night, when it could be just them, alone.

Later that night Harry laid down next to Louis, he looked over when he felt Harry move to grab his phone, they both stayed in silence for a while, just scrolling through instagram and twitter. "Harry, are you okay?" Louis eventually asked, "yeh, I'm just tired, I think I might sleep now" He replied coldly putting his phone away and falling asleep.

Louis sighed, Harry didn't even move closer to Louis like he normally does when they go to sleep. He got up and went into the bathroom making sure he had his diary and a pen.

Have I done something wrong

Does Harry hate me for something

Is this about all the breakup stuff and everyone talking about larry

Does he really not want to be with me that much

This day was supposed to be happy but it feels like a day back when I first started writing this diary.

Maybe he'll tall to me tomorrow and we can fix this

But for now I'll focus on being happy about....

How I managed to get rid of my girlfriend

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Just one more chapter now until the epilogue, I can't believe it