Lilac || KTH Fanfic

Chapter 9: Wishing On a Star

                                                 (His Pov)

"I feel comfortable now that I walked her home. She is clumsy sometimes. She is like the universe. No matter how much you know about it, it always goes beyond your imagination, leaving you speechless and more curious. I want to sit with stars and watch her all night. I know I'm being selfish. I have no right to like her. 

She deserves better.

My love is selfish. So, I won't let her become a part of my life. I will only end up hurting her more.

Me and her are stars in the same sky but from two different nights.

I think I should shake off this useless feelings and emotions. If I don't do it now, she might suffer because of my selfishness later," As I rebelled about her inside my mind, I decided to shake off my feelings for her.

 I didn't go home at that time. Instead of going home, I went to a columbarium...

"Mom, I'm sorry for being late. I know you're not angry but still, I'm sorry. I'm not a good child. I didn't take good care of you...Maybe that's why you left me all along. I guess Dad didn't visit you today either. How can he be so irresponsible? He didn't even bother to mourn for your soul. Okay, I will not make you sad...But still you loved him so much...

Mom, I transferred school again..

Don't worry, I'm adjusting well. I made some great friends. Do you know, I tasted tteokbokki because of them. It was so spicy for me to handle. They were laughing at me because of my reaction after eating tteokbokki.

I swore to be good to you, to be loyal to you... I want to make you proud mom.....

There is a girl I like. She is a little clumsy sometimes....... But I find that cute.....

You are living well in heaven alone? I'm missing you. Do you miss me? I'm so jealous that you're living alone in heaven without me..

You should've taken me with you back then...

Why did you save me....?" I felt a heavy ache in the midst of my chest as I was complaining to my mom. I was punching my chest as my legs felt heavy. I got on my knees because of that unbearable heartbreak. My eyes became filled with tears. They started to drop. 

But, does crying solve everything?

                                          (Third person's Pov) 

He bowed one more time before leaving the columbarium. It was almost 10 o'clock. He wiped his nose and eyes with a handkerchief. His eyes was swollen a bit but he didn't mind. After crying and complaining to his mother, he felt a lot better than before. But he was angry. He was angry at himself. He was angry at his father who didn't payed her a visit. He was angry because his father didn't even prepare a memorial table for her.

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[A/n: Hi readers!! First of all, I would like to apologize. I know the story is not good but still, thanks for reading. Give me some advice so that, I can write a better story.

And also, This fanfiction is not related to reality except for Tae's name. 

Again I'm sorry for delivering a bad chapter.  😓😓]