Lilac || KTH Fanfic

Chapter 12: What am I to You?

"I'm sorry baby."

You can't believe that you've to transfer school. You've only one day left. Your eyes were full of redness as you didn't want to leave. But you can't rebel against your parents. It's your life but your parents decisions are final decision for you. 

You went to your room immediately and slammed the door with all your might.

Your parents were worried about you.

You buried your face in your soft pillow. Tomorrow is the last day you can see Taehyung. After tomorrow, you'll be in Busan, in a new school, a new environment. Thoughts of not being able to see Taehyung hurts you the most.

                                                  [Y/n's Pov]

"I don't know what should I do now. Should I confess to Taehyung? But I'm sure he doesn't like me. But what if he does? No, That's impossible," My little brain was filled with some useless thoughts. Still, I wanted to confess. I wanted to let Taehyung know about my true feelings and emotions. I threw the pillow from my lap as I was angry. I didn't know what  to do, My mind went blank.

But after tomorrow, Taehyung and I will become stranger. Maybe we'll never cross our paths again. Even if he rejects me, I'll not appear in front of him again. That's what I thought. I gathered all my courage to confess to him.

So, I didn't know how to confess. I mean in dramas and movies, main leads always confess to each other saying some cheesy and emotional stuffs. After hearing them, the other party always breaks into tears and accepts them.

But reality is far from those stuffs. Every person has their own mindset and we can't guess what they think or what they want.

I hugged myself as I was disappointed at myself. 

My eyes weren't full of tears. Why should they? I'm not a crybaby. People say crying helps you to feel relived. It lessens your burden, the burden which one hide within themselves. But I think crying makes one weak. It means they're defeated by the reality. I think not crying makes one strong. They hold a grudge deep inside and try to achieve victory by defeating the thing that makes them feel sad. 

I turned my face to the window. Watching the thunders rumble, I decided to confess my true feelings. 

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|Next Morning|

The morning sun woke up filling my entire room with its sunshine. The curtains were dancing with the wind. The birds were chirping. They were my alarm clock. I let out a little yawn as I rubbed my eyes. Doing some morning exercise, I left my messy bed and went to wash my face. 

I had some sandwich for breakfast. Mom was looking at me with a suspicious face and whispered  something to my dad in front of me. I didn't mind because I already knew that they were worried about me. 

"Don't worry mom, dad, I'm fine."

"Don't pressure yourself," Both my parents said to me with a worried look in their face.

I was relived to know that they care for me. Oh, It's not the time to think about this. I've to focus on what I'm going to do later.

Before going to school, I went to a flower shop which was situated near our school. There was two old oak tree in front of the shop. I don't know why, I feel relived every time I see those two oak trees together. 

I bought a purple lilac from that shop...... I bought only one piece of purple lilac. It's not that I couldn't afford the whole bouquet. It was my wish to give only one piece of purple lilac to the person whom I'll love for the first time. He is my first and last purple lilac.

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[A/n: Hi, guys! So, I'm here to explain why I named this story lilac. Lilac flower has a special meaning. Each color has a different meaning. Actually, Purple lilac means first love. That's why my story's name is also lilac. In first chapter, I referred our youth as white lilacs. White lilacs mean purity and innocence. That's all, stay safe guys.]