Mi Amargo Amor (ON-GOING)

Chapter 11

THERE seemed to be a strong storm brewing around him as he walks leaving the office. Such a wicked woman! Now she'll use that freaking business proposal on me?! You like games? Well, then I will give you the game you want. He said with a smirk on his face.

Sumakay siya pababa ng elevator. The image kept popping in his mind was none other Alexa. Her beautiful face, her scent and her genuine smile lightens up his world. Fuck! This is not me literally! I need to go to Giddeon he's the only one who can help me. Yeah! That's right. I'll go to Giddeon. Dali dali siyang sumakay sa kaniyang sedan at pinaharurot patungo sa clinic ng kaniyang kaibigan.

"Anong satin". Kaagad na tanong nito ng makita siya sa klinika nito.

Ngumiti siya kapagkuwan ay naupo sa harap ng table nito kapagkuwa'y marahas na humugot ng buntong hininga.

"Tell me Gidd. baliw ka na ba kapag lagi mong hinahanap ang presensiya ng isang babae?" seryosong turan niya.

"What do you mean?" naka ngiwing sabi nito.

"Yung tipong hinahanap mo yung presensya niya. Yung ngiti niya, amoy niya... Yung buong siya?!" malalaki ang mata nitong sabi.

"Nicz, di ko maintindihan sinasabi mo." nakakunot nuo nitong turan.

"C'mon Gidd, kaya nga ako nandito eh. Kase alam kong ikaw lang makakatulong sakin." sagot niya rito. "I mean look at you, you're a fucking psychologist kaya for sure alam mo ang sinasabi ko." patuloy nito.

"You're acting weird man, mula nung nasa bar pa lang tayo, tapos nung makita mo lang ang mukha ni-..." hindi na nito natuloy ang ibang sasabihin nang putulin ni Franz ang iba pa niyang sasabihin.

"Don't ever dare to say the name of that woman!" he hissed. He went livid.

Itinaas ng kaibigan ang kamay nito sa ere na tila suko na ito. "Fine, fine! Wala naman akong kinalaman don. Ok?! Easy lang Nicz, easy lang..."

Nag iwas siya ng tingin sa kanyang kaibigan. Para hindi nito makita ang frustasyong nararamdaman niya sa mga oras na yon. He sighed again.

"I have to go, akala ko matutulungan mo ako." akamang aalis na siya ng magsalita ang kaibigan.

"Nicz, di ka makakapag simula ulit kung patuloy mong babalikan ang nakaraan. Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate your mind on the present moment. So learn to forgive and forget." sabay labas ng klinika nito.

Natameme si Franz sa sinabi ng kaibigan. Tama ito, kailangan niya nang makalimot at magpatawad. Ngunit paano? Gayong naka kulong pa din ang puso niya sa kirot at sakit na dulot ng nakaraan.

Tulala siya habang naka upo sa harap ng sandamakmak at tambak na papeles na naghihintay na mapirmahan. Hanggang sa mga oras na ito nasa isip niya pa rin ang tinuran ng kaniyang kaibigan sa kaniya.

'How can I do that if I'd still remember the pain and shits that I've been through? Fuck! Fuck it! Fuck you love!' galit na anas sa kaniyang isip.

There's time to heal Franz, just let your heart be. Aniya ng mumunting tinig.

Napasandal siya sa kaniyang swivel chair. Everything has been fucked up again. Bumalik pa kasi ang babaeng nagpahirap sa kaniya ng halos ilang taon. Ngayon ay bumabalik din ang lahat ng sakit na naramdaman niya nuon. Nawala sa isip niya ang sinabi ni Alexa sa kanya kanina.

Kinuha niya ang cellphone sa kaniyang suot na Armani. Tiningnan niya ang oras, it's already 4:26 pm binuksan niya iyon at nag punta sa music playlist. Namili siya ng kantang patutugtugin upang mapiksi kahit panandalian ang kaniyang nararamdaman.

Nang makita ang paboritong kanta ay agad niya iyong pinatugtog at napuno ng isang malungkot na tugtugin ang buong kwarto. Dahan dahan niyang ihinilig ang ulo sa likod ng kanyang upuan at marahang ipinikit ang mga mata.

There's no reason, there's no rhyme

I found myself blindsided by

A feeling that I've never known

I'm dealing with it on my own

Phone is quiet, walls are bare

I drink myself to sleep, who cares?

No one even has to know

I'm dealing with it on my own

He softly sings along with the music...

I got way too much time to be this hurt

Somebody help, it's getting worse

What do you do with a broken heart?

Once the light fades, everything is dark

Way too much whiskey in my blood

I feel my body giving up

Can I hold on for another night?

What do I do with all this time?

A lone tear gradually flowed down his cheek.

Every thought's when it gets late

Put me in a fragile state

I wish I wasn't going home

Dealing with it on my own

I'm praying but it's not enough

I'm done, I don't believe in love

Learning how to let it go

Dealing with it on my own

And another tear slid down on his face.

I got way too much time to be this hurt

Somebody help, it's getting worse

What do you do with a broken heart?

Once the light fades, everything is dark

Way too much whiskey in my blood

I feel my body giving up

Can I hold on for another night?

What do I do with all this time? Yeah

A soft sob escaped from his lips.

I drive circles under street lights

Nothing seems to clear my mind

I can't forget

It's inside my head, so

I drive, chasing Malibu nights

Nothing seems to heal my mind

I can't forget

Visible tears after soft sobs then a massive tears fall one by one from his eyes.

He must be hurt so much in every way.

Franz let his heart cry out. He let all the hurt and pain cast away, even in just a couple of time then suddenly he fell asleep. It's already 11 pm when someone wakes and informed him. He hurriedly stood up and went home.

A/N: Sorry in advance kung may mga grammatical errors and medyo boring ang plot ng story.