Di ko alam pero magmula noong dumating yung ex ni Flaze nagbago na siya ng pakikitungo sakin. Aaminin ko nasasaktan ako...pero wala e..wala akong magagawa bumalik na yung totoong mahal niya.
Sa mga lumipas na araw ...parang di na siya yung boss na nakilala ko...naging distant siya towards me ...akala niya siguro di ko nahahalata pero halatang halata ko. Gustong gusto ko siyang sigawan at tanungin kung ano ba mali ko? Kaso tuwing maaalala ko na wala palang kasiguraduhan yung nangyare samin....nanlalata ako.
I don't know what to feel anymore. I felt so down right now. Minsan napapaisip nalang ako. What if, he just want my virginity? What if he just want to try another flavor?
Everytime na magka-kasalubong kami para lang akong hangin sakaniya. I don't know what happened, sa totoo lang.
For the past few weeks na ganiyan I feel so down and unwanted. Pero ngayong araw ewan ko nalang talaga kung ano nararamdaman ko. I knocked 3 times before entering,I saw them kissing. That sh*t hurts me huh! Damn it. Hindi ko alam if itutuloy ko pa ba? Kasi natuod na ko sa kinatatayuan ko. Ewan ko narinig ata nila ang pagbukas ko ng pinto dahil sabay silang napalingon sakin. Parang biglang nabato sa kinauupuan niya si Flaze and I saw him pale. Hindi ko alam pero bigla nalang tumulo luha ko, I don't want them to see how hurt I am. So I excuse myself...
" ahmmm.. excuse me. Sorry sir sa abala" I said before turning my back and running papunta sa CR but before I could open the door may isang kamay na humila sakin and guess who? It's Flaze. I don't know why he chase me?
" Baby, let me explain.. it's not what you think it- " hindi ko na pinatapos ang sasabihin niya. I interrupt him.
" Don't call me baby again, I'm not your baby." I said coldly. " And you don't need to explain, kasi wala namang tayo. " I said while smiling sadly. Looking directly at his eyes. I can see how much he tried to explain but I won't let him. I'm so very mad. There's something in his eyes that I can't explain.
" Bab- Laciah, please listen. Listen to me please!" Nagmamakaawa niyang sabi. I can't handle it anymore. My tears are slowly falling. Nakita ko kung gaano niya ko gustong hawakan, punasan ang luha ko pero hindi niya magawa dahil alam niyang hindi ako magpapahawak sakaniya.
" I don't want to see you anymore. I'm done. I quit! Don't worry I will give my resignation letter later. Let me fix myself first." I said before entering the bathroom and I hear him shout my name at isang malakas na suntok mula sa isang pinto ang kasunod nito.
" Laciah baby! Noooo!! Fuck it.. fuck fucking fuck!" Sunod sunod na mura nito
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Womanizer series #1: The Pain Is Killing Me
RomanceA womanizer who fell inlove on his Nanny's daughter. Everybody known him by his playboy personality but everytime he lay his eyes on the beautiful daughter of their mayordoma his heart beats fast and it takes his breath away..... Not until he saw hi...
