Womanizer series #1: The Pain Is Killing Me

CHAPTER 17: Question

The pain I was feeling is unbearable. I look at him with so much pain in my eyes. I saw him gulping and worry is visible in his eyes. He freed me from his arms. He took a step away.

"I'm sorry, did I hurt you that much? I'm sorry Laciah, saan yung masakit?" he asked with so much emotions. How can I answer him without giving any hint that I'm pregnant with his child? How? Kasi kung ganito siya, kung ganito trato niya sakin.... paano ko sasabihing buntis ako at siya ang ama?

"No, I'm going." I start to walk away and run as fast as I could but bago ko pa marating ang pinto ay naabutan niya na ko. He hold my hand at pinaharap niya ko sakaniya. Nagtatanong na mga mata ang sumalubong saakin. Hindi ko na kaya ang sakit na nadarama ko sa aking tiyan.

He hold me with so much care and before he even talk, I passed out.

I woke up with a heavy feeling. Napabangon ako agad dahil sa pagkataranta. Where am I? Nilibot ko ang paningin ko at purong puti ang makikita sa ceiling, pader at iba pa. I'm at the hospital. Anong nangyari? Naputol ang aking mga katanungan dahil pumasok si Flaze mula sa pinto, gamit ang di ko maipaliwanag na tingin. Alam niya na ba?

"Let's talk when you're totally okay. I have something to ask you." he said then leave. He closed the door with a loud noise. I think he knows it already. I don't know what to feel? Should I be scared? I feel empty.

Dumating ang hapon na para lang akong nakalutang sa ere, walang kahit ano. Nanay came kanina, she look at me na parang disappointed na ewan. Did she knew already? Isa pa yan sa iniisip ko. Alam na ba ni Flaze? Ni nanay? Hindi naman masyadong malala ang nangyari sakin kaya pinalabas din ako agad. Flaze came to fetch me but he seems so distant and cold. And I'm so thankful for that, kasi di ko rin alam paano ko siya pakikitunguhan.

He's so quiet while driving and I'm here at the his side looking at the window beside me. Walang nagsasalita, tanging malalim niya lang na paghinga ang maririnig at ang mga busina ng mga sasakyan nagdadaanan. He cleared his throat kaya naman napalingon ako sakaniya. Alam kong ano mang oras ay magtatanong siya, at heto na nga iyon.

"How long?" a simple question but para akong maduduwal sa kaba. He glance at me for a second at bumalik din agad yun sa harap dahil nagmamaneho siya.

"A month." I answered him shortly. Without looking at him. I can feel the tension building up. Napasulyap ako sa kamay niyang mas humigpit ang hawal sa manibela, alam kong galit siya. Pero ako rin, what did he expect ba? Na after knowing na buntis ako, tatakbo ako sakaniya at ipipilit ang sarili ko? No, hindi ako ganun. Kasi kung saakin pa ngalang ayaw niya, sa dinadala ko pa kaya?

" Why you didn't tell me? Is that even my child?" and that breaks me the most. Bakit kailangan pa niyang sabihin yun? I looked at him with so much emotions in my eyes. I'm so offended.

" Do you think after something happened between us, I fuck another man?" I harshly said because now, I'm so mad at him.

" I don't know. Maybe you want to experience being laid again? Who knows?" He answered me while still looking infront, Okay I'm done. I don't want to be treated like this. Ganun ba tingin niya sakin? Kasi putangina matapos ng nangyari samin ni kailan man hindi pumasok sa utak kong makipagtalik pa sa iba.

" If that's what you think then ibaba mo na ako. I'm going to see my man and he will fuck me until I can't walk anymore." I said while smirking and a satisfied grin formed in my lips matapos niyang biglang ipreno ang sasakyan sa gilid ng kalsada. Dali-dali akong lumabas sa sasakyan niya buti nalang ay may padaan ng taxi kaya pinara ko ito agad at daling sumakay.

" Fuck you, Laciah. What the heck are you saying? Fuck you until you can't walk anymore my ass. " I murmured while laughing. I'm crazy, I know.