Unconditional [Namjin FF]

Two Perspectives

NAMJOON

What was I thinking? How can I do this? After everything that happened that day, I really did this. I was driving pretty fast straight towards home, the car jerked as it went over some speed-breakers without me slowing down. The whole time my mind was filled with Jin's pretty face with those shiny eyes, "I want to be with you for the longest of time". 

When I reached home I immediately went towards my room, I didn't want to talk to anyone. Jungkook was sitting on the sofa in the drawing space, as he saw me he smiled and got up. "Ah Hyung you know-" "Not now Jungkook." I cut him sharply, I don't like doing it, but I was so frustrated at that time. 

I went to my room, shut the door with a loud bang and laid down on my bed.  I really didn't think enough before taking this big decision, I am so careless. Seokjin must be so hurt now, I didn't want to hurt him. Everything was going perfectly but, it had to be ruined.

*2 years ago*

Namjoon and Seojun were running down the corridors, they were chased by some senior boys. They took a turn and hid under a table that had a lot of boxes around it. They were safe there, the boxes covered them properly. Their heart was beating very fast as they tried to control their breath. After a few minutes, they heard footsteps approaching. They stopped right in front of the table. 

"I don't think they are here." They heard a voice say, and with that, the footsteps faded away. They slowly crept out of that place and again ran towards the administrative building. All of a sudden Namjoon stopped, his full face was red and he couldn't breathe properly. Seojun bent down to check on Namjoon. "Are you okay? Should we stop?" Namjoon's condition was very bad, but they also had to take the dog to the infirmary. They had rescued it from the elder boys. Namjoon insisted on keep going. They did reach the infirmary but Namjoon fell to the ground as soon as they entered the room. He was rushed to the hospital. It was the worst day for Seojun. Namjoon was in the hospital for 4 days and Seojun was there all the time. He didn't eat nor went home. 

That's when they came to know that Namjoon was diagnosed with Artery Blockage Stage III. That pretty much affected the lives of Namjoon and all the people around him. Seojun used to cry every day and never left Namjoon's side. That's when Namjoon decided that he won't get close to anyone anymore. He isn't sure about his life, and getting closer means hurting people. After that, he stopped talking to Seojun, because he didn't want to hurt him, so he pushed him away. 

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SEOKJIN

I haven't been to college for a whole week now. Actually, I haven't even gone out of my room too. Jimin and Tae had come to check on me, but they didn't get any response so they left. I could tell that they were worried for me, but I wanted time alone. Yoongi and Hoseok had called me a few times, they probably know, but I did not tell them anything. 

I was lagging in my studies. I had already joined in the middle and now I wasn't attending classes, GREAT! I need to attend classes or at least get my notes from somewhere. I was looking through my call directory and came across Moon's number, and I ringed her up immediately. 

Moon:: Seokjinah, tell. *She spoke as soon as she picked the phone up.*
Me:: Did I disturb you?
Moon::  Ah no. Not at all. It's okay, you can call me anytime.
Me:: Thanks. By the way... I wanted to ask you if you could give me the notes... I have missed a lot of classes...
Moon:: Of course! No problem. I noticed that you didn't attend classes for a few days. Well, if don't mind if you could come to my house, I think that way it will be better if you understand the lessons.
Me:: No problem at all. When are you free?
Moon:: How about today evening?
Me:: Okay, I'll be there. Thank you much.
Moon:: You're welcome!

At around 4 P.M. I rang the doorbell to Moon's house.  It was relaxing to come out after so long. After a few seconds, Moon's mother opened the door. I bowed and said hello to her. "You must be Seokjin, right? Moon is waiting for you upstairs. The second room on the left is hers." I thanked her and went to Moon's room. Her door was slightly open so I knocked before I entered. She was arranging books on the table. "Seokjinah, come sit" She smiled as she saw me. I sat down opposite her. The room was very feminine. It had soft pink walls and cream beddings. Some soft toys were arranged on the shelf. Everything was well organised in its place. 

I sat down opposite her. Moon's mother brought us some snacks and two glasses of hot cocoa. "So, you ready?" "Yeah" We studied for quite along. Moon is very patient when it comes to explaining things. She marked portions that I need to memorise and let me take her books home. We were done with our studies by 7 so we decided to chat a bit before I head home. She told me about her piano lessons and that she likes to cook. She was impressed by the fact that I like cooking too. 
"So... Are you and Namjoon really close? I mean you know he doesn't have a lot of friends so I was wondering if you both are friends or not" My face dropped at the mention of his name, I didn't want to talk about him at all. "Umm... Not really, he's just an acquaintance." I replied with a dry smile. "Oh... I thought you both hang out so..." I just wanted to be over with this conversation. "He is a friend of Yoongi and Hoseok, so it's just a common friend circle thing."
"Oh yeah obviously. Well... if he had a girlfriend, would you happen to know about it?" She asked in a low tone. "Why do you ask?" I was puzzled by this out of the blue question. She sighed and started speaking "I have known Namjoon since we were kids. Our families are friends, so we know each other pretty well. We even dated in middle school, but one day he suddenly stopped talking. I asked you that because none of his other friends would talk to me. And there's something more to it. I'm telling you this because I consider you my friend. I still love Namjoon. And I want to know if he feels the same."

I couldn't believe my ears. Did she just say that she likes Namjoon? Oh hell no she can't! She can't like him. I stared at her in surprise. She has known Joon more than I have, she knows so much more than me, and she's pretty, there's no way he wouldn't like a girl like her. Could it be? Does he like her that's why he acted the way he did? Then why did he play with my heart in the first place? There was so much rushing through my mind at once that I felt dizzy. I wanted to leave this room immediately, felt hot and out of breath suddenly. 

"Seokjin, are you okay?" I realised I was sweating and shaking. "Yeah, I am. I am okay" My voice was barely a whisper. "But you don't look-" I didn't even let her complete the sentence walked out of the house. No... No, this can't be... This can't be happening to me... Why... Why was it me... Why does it have to be me? My phone kept ringing, but I didn't pick it up. I don't want to talk to anyone, I just wanted to be alone.