Loki Laufeyson Imagines

you saved me (revised)

Pairing: Loki Laufeyson x Reader

Warnings: TW!! suicide attempt, angst, flUfF

Summary: based off the song above (such a great song recommend listening to it before reading to make more sense of the story) you try to save Loki from a suicide attempt

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You jolted awake.  You blink a few times, trying to see what woke you up but everything was silent.  You swallow hard, shaking your head, before rolling over and snuggling back under the covers.

    A few minutes later, you still can't sleep.  Something was pulling at your gut, something felt off and wrong.

    You sit up and look around.  Everything was in its place.

    "Loki?" you call out softly.  Loki was right in the room next to you, and being a light sleeper, he usually heard you.  But tonight, he didn't respond.  You defenses immediately went up, as you slowly slipped out of bed.

    "Loki?" you whisper cautiously.  You hold up your hands, ready to blast away anyone you didn't recognize.  With one hand up, you reach for the knob with the other, and slowly open the door.  You peek your head in and scan the room to see no one there.  Not even Loki.  Your brows furrow.

    Where was he?  You rack your brain for where he could be, until you remember he sometimes snuck up to the roof to watch the stars.  Loki and you were... well it was strange.  You both really liked each other, but just never made moves.  You both admitted to feelings, but never asked the other out.  You guys were the best of friends and each other inside and out. 

    You squeeze your eyes shut, and teleport yourself up to the roof.  You feel the slight breeze whistle through your hair, and you open your eyes and look around.  And there he was.  You smile a bit.

    "Hey... what are you doing up here?" you ask.  You don't freak out till you realize he's standing on the ledge of the roof.

    "L-Loki?" you stutter.  A few seconds pass before he turns around, and his stone cold face softens.

    "Y-Y/n?" he stutters. His eyes are rimmed red, and he seems fidgety.

    "What are you doing?  We got a big day tomorrow, aren't you tired?" you chuckle, trying to lighten the weird mood. 

    "I could ask the same of you.  I did not invite you," he snaps, his face going cold again.  You scrunch your nose.

    "I was just coming to check up on you," you defend.  Loki gives a cold laugh, jabbing his finger at you.

    "Do not pretend like you care Y/n!  Deep down, I know that you think you are better than me!" he seethes.  You step back as if his finger actually pushed you back.

    "What are you talking about?  I care!" you scoff.  Loki chuckles coldly rolling his eyes.

    "You are the hero Y/n and I am the villian. I always will be, scum of the earth.  You could never truly love a monster like me," Loki snarls.  You shake your head.

    "Loki!!  D-don't say that!!" you cry.  He scoffs, shaking his head.

"I have come to terms with how this thing called life works Y/n," he says, taking in a deep breath, before looking back at you.

    "I like you.  A lot Y/n.  Always have... it would never work though.  You are the hero, I am the villain.  It is how life goes.  And... if I cannot have you," he glances off the roof down at the quiet city below, before looking back at you, "then what is the point?"  His sentence finishes off bitterly, as your heart goes cold.