Sage

C1 || One's Dead, One's Gone

Trepidation. Fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of the future. Fear of myself. I face it every morning when I wake up. I face it on my way to school. I face it when I am too close to people. I face it when I accidentally get into someones head. I face it when I go home to my guardians. But I never show it.

You never show fear. You can't when you are like me. You let your fear show then they will turn it against you. You let your fear show then you let other things show. Things that you should't have. Things that you shouldn't be able to do. Then they ask questions and more questions. Those lead to secrets. Secrets expose you more than fear.

So therefore you never let your fear show. I haven't since I left there. I don't think I have shown any emotion since I left- escaped there. That's what I was taught. Never show emotion. Never show fear. Never give the enemy an advantage. Never let anyone in. It has been drilled into my head as a permanent reminder. As if what they did to me wasn't enough.

I try not to think about there. Of what I had to do to get out. The lies, the secrets, the pain. I keep it locked down. Letting it out could get me killed. Or worse become exactly what they wanted. Exactly what they made me into. A Monster.

I got knocked out of my thoughts by the lunch bell. I quickly got out of my seat not sparing anyone a glance. I hate school with every fiber in my being. But its to maintain cover so no one gets suspicious. That doesn't mean I need to socialize though. I only insert myself when needed. That usually never happens unless someone is messing with someone else. The amount of fights I have stopped and finished in this school has proven not to mess with me.

I slammed the lunch room doors open making my way to the front of the lunch line to get a cookie. No one would stop me. No one does. After paying for the cookie I make my way to the table in the back. I don't have a group per-say. I don't want to sound like the cliché bad girl loner. Because I am far from it in my eyes. But not others I guess. They see what they want to see not what's really right in front of them. Not what's really there.

"SAGE ROMAN PLEASE COME TO THE OFFICE. SAGE ROMAN PLEASE COME TO THE OFFICE." I hear on the intercom. All heads snap to my table. But one of my harsh glares sends them back to whisper.

I reluctantly get out of my seat and make my way to the office. I know for a fact that I haven't done anything. Not since a few weeks ago that is. No one said anything about me beating up Tommy Warren. He came onto a freshman girl after she said no constantly so I put him in his place. Which right now is the hospital.

Once I got to the office the front desk lady looked at me with wide eyes. I paid her no mind going straight for the principal's door. I pushed it open making my way into the room with my usual blank glare. I took the seat in front of him before speaking.

"Derek."

"Sage" he greeted with a nod. "I am sure you are wondering why you are here."

To this I raised an eyebrow. "Tommy?"

He shook his head. "No. Not Tommy although his parents are still wondering who put their son into the Hospital I explained the situation and got you off the hook."

"Then what?"

To this he gave me a solemn look. One with remorse and pity. Well fuck.

"Unfortunately your mother and step- father have been into an accident. Your step-father was under the influence while driving and went onto a head on collision with another car. It killed your mother instantly and it seems your father fled the scene soon after. Police are looking for him now because the other people in the car are in critical care. It is being classified as a hit and run."

I sat there in pure shock. One's dead, one's missing. Both gone. But I didn't let my face change.

"What happens now?" I asked in my usual void of emotion voice.

Derek looked at me surprised of my lack of reaction. But I don't have one. I won't shed a tear for either one of them. Not anymore, they took all the tears I had left there.

He quickly composed himself before answering. "Well when the police were looking around the house they came across your birth certificate and contacted your father. Him and your brothers have agreed to take you in." he said pointing to the two men behind him.

I looked up to see two men staring right back at me with slight admiration. They had black faces but I could see right through their eyes. I honestly didn't need to though. I knew exactly who they were. It was Papa and Dom staring right back at me. Their brown eyes I had missed stared back at me like they honestly couldn't believe I was there.

I could feel my emotions start to flare up. This is not good.

"I need to use the bathroom I will meet you outside" I said before making my way to the bathroom at the end of the hall. I knew I needed to get out of there before I got too riled up.

I slammed the bathroom door open making sure no one was in there before locking the door. I made my way to the sink breathing heavy. I looked up in the mirror to see my usual dark forrest green eyes their glowing bright emerald. I closed them after a few moments trying to calm down.

No emotion. No fear. No emotion. No fear.

I sank down to the floor repeating it over and over again. I might not have been there in a year but I still need to remember what they said. It's the only way I can calm down. The only way that I won't lose control.

A/N ....How was this???

also this is the dobermans and Sages outfit