Sage Roman. The Mafia Princess of the Italian's. The only little girl to be born in several generations. She was the light of the Roman families lives. Except for her mother Elaine. She grew jealous of her daughter getting the attention of not only...
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Green.
The color green is said to be the balance between head and heart. Green is supposed to represent nature, growth, energy, and liveliness. Yet, it is also known to represent envy, and jealousy. Someone once told me that the color of my power meant something. It wasn't just some coincidence that green was the color of something so special. It had a meaning, just like most things in my life.
Now, I never really paid attention to it just because I didn't know the meaning. I didn't understand why my powers were green or any color at all for that matter. If we are being honest I will never truly understand why I have powered in the first place. I am not some superhero from the Marvel universe. I am teenage girl that feels like she has no meaning. So much could be said about the color green, but what could truly be said about me?
There wasn't much to me other than a girl with a fragile mind and abilities that shouldn't exist. At least thats what I though of myself. When that person told me that green being the color of my powers meant something I looked at them as if they were crazy. What's interesting is I wasn't confused about the statement. I was confused about what the color green represented and how that effected me. How is the color green and all its meanings tied to who I am? To honestly answer the question,
I don't know.
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The breakfast table was quiet as everyone ate. No one questioned but everyone saw the prominent eye bags under my eyes. I could feel there staring but I never once looked up. Though, I know they couldn't blame me because they were victims of a sleepless night as well. Except, for Mario who's was gracious enough to be in a dream like state the whole night, courtesy of myself. I unfortunately didn't get that luxury. After my nightmare about Elle, I had woken up with a fright and never went back to sleep. Now it wasn't uncommon for me to have nightmares. I have the countlessly, but this time was different. I haven't dreamed of her in so long. I tried to push everything I had of her down. At first, I thought I had succeeded. But when something happened a to someone special to you it's hard to forget.
"Mr. Roman sir" One of the guards came into the dining room and spoke.
Papa turned his head and looking in the man's direction with a raised eyebrow. "What is it Vincent?"
"I was told to inform you that the Garcia's are pulling into the driveway." he said before leaving us.
I saw Papa shake his head mumbling something under the lines of 'that woman' in Italian. He stood up and walked over to the sink to put his dishes away before turning to all of us who were still sitting at the table.
"You all know how your Tia is, let get this over with please so she can have some piece of mind as well as myself." he said as if it was directed at everyone but his eyes never wavered from my form.
Everyone started getting up from the table at their own accord gradually. It wasn't long before most of my brothers were headed to the living room to talk. Me on the other hand still sat at the table staring into the nothingness of the polished wall in front of me.
I was second guessing myself in this very moment. Not just telling them about my powers or showing them. I was second guessing everything I had done to lead up to this very moment. Contemplating if any of this was ever worth it. Is what I am about to tell them going to be worth it in the end. Should I even tell them?
So much was going on in my mind that i could feel my control slipping. It felt as if I couldn't breathe. Everything around me seemed to be closing in on me, judging me. For my decisions, my choices, my actions, my looks, my everything. And I couldn't stop it.
I felt the presence of someone next to me before I felt them put their hand on my shoulder. But I was too out of it to look up at them. My head was in my hands trying to calm my breathing and focus on not losing control.
"Sage" I heard the voice of my twin speak.
I shakily lift my head to meet his brown eyes. The concern they held was imminent but the love he felt overpowered it. He didn't say anything to me in that moment just looked. But, he didn't have to because I knew what he was saying.
I will be with you every step of the way.
I nodded and him before lifting my head completely. I let out another breath before fully getting up onto my feet and grabbing my twins hand.
Come on Sage, No emotion, No fear.
No emotion, No fear.
No emotion, No fear.
No emotion.
No fear.
No emotion.
No fear.
fear.
fear.
fear.
No matter how many times I repeated that in my head all i felt was fear. The only thing keeping me grounded at that point was the touch of my twin who was guiding me into the next room. I was so scared though I didn't let my face show. My face was blank of any emotion despite the hurricane of feeling I was experiencing on the inside.
By the time we entered the living room my family as well as the Garcia's were sat on the couch whispering. Upon the arrival of Mario and myself though they quieted down. I felt Mario give my hand a squeeze. Another gentle reminder he was there for me. I couldn't help the warmth I felt at this. He didn't know it yet, but he was the only thing keeping me sane at this moment.
As much as I wish I could, I couldn't help my wandering eyes that met Tio's. Though My eyes just found his I could tell he had been looking at me for awhile. His cold stare held mine in a hold. But eventually I had to look away knowing if I held it any longer I would crack.
Mario and I sat on the two seater next to our father who sat in his designated chair. I was in between both of them, trapped almost. Mario's hand still held my own as we sat down. I was still squeezing his hand but he didn't seem to mind. Once a throat was cleared I looked up.
"What do you guys want to know" I asked, my voice coming out hoarse due to the lack of talking.
"Everything."
A/N
Holy shit guys, first of all I apologize for not updating in so long but a bitch is back. Second when I tel you I was shocked to see all the comments, votes, and reads on this story. Thank you so so so sooooo much for all of this. This book is my baby and I have not been tending to her lately but that is going to change for sure. Big things are coming in the next chapters so stay tunedddd.
