Silence (5sos ot4)

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A/N- HEELLLOOOO!!! I PROMISED AN EARLIER CHAPTER AND WROTE THIS IN MAYBE A DAY AND IT'S RUSHED AND TERRIBLE BUT THE NEXT ONE WILL BE BETTER AND SAD SO BE READY!!!

Please enjoy this extremely unedited chapter :P

"I want more but I can't eat it because I don't want to explode," Michael complained as he stared at the last untouched third box of pizza.

Out of the sixteen slices eaten, Michael had eaten one whole pizza alone. Of the other eight slices, Ashton ate four, and Luke and Calum had surprisingly eaten two slices each.

"Shut up Mikey. How the hell do you stay so skinny?" Ashton questioned curiously, poking his boyfriend's bony hips and flat tummy, causing him to squirm.

"I don't know. Something about a high metabolism. Which is good because I don't wanna have to stop eating anytime soon just so I won't become overweight," he said.

Luke was laying with his head on Calum's chest as the two layed back on the bed. He honestly only ate two slices of pepperoni pizza because he wanted to make the other boys proud. He knew he had a problem and wanted to get better. But now he felt sick.

All he could think about was when to get the fattening food out. It didn't belong in his already chubby stomach and he just wanted to get rid of it.

He buried his nose in Calum's neck to stop himself from getting up and running to the bathroom.

Calum noticed the action and felt Luke's grip on his sweater tighten. He looked down at the blonde who had an uncomfortable look on his face and was biting his lip hard enough to draw blood.

"Wh-what's wrong, L-Lukey?" Calum whispered quietly.

Luke removed his face from the boy's neck and looked up at him with sad eyes.

"I'm fine Calum. Don't worry," he whispered back.

Calum stared at the boy for a while before reluctantly nodding his head. Luke sighed in relief. He had hoped Calum didn't think anything was wrong with him. He didn't want the kiwi boy to worry about him. He wasn't worth worrying over anyway...

Michael and Ashton looked over at the two cuddling boys and smiled. They were happy Calum was comfortable enough with them to spend time with them like this.

They inched over to them. Ashton wrapped his arms around Calum's tiny waist from behind as Michael did the same to Luke.

Luke turned around in Michael's arms and let out an unexpected whimper.

"What's wrong baby?" Michael asked, concerned.

Luke shook his head and wrapped his arms tightly around his stomach. Michael knew what the problem was now.

"Lukey, how much did you eat?" he asked quietly, stroking Luke's sides gently.

Luke sighed. "About two slices," he whispered back.

Michael furrowed his eyebrows and sighed. "Baby, you never eat that much. Why?"

"Because I wanted to make you guys proud by trying to get better," the blonde whispered sadly.

"Luke, you don't have to force yourself to over eat for us. We want you to get better too, but we won't shove food down your throat every time we eat. We don't want you to make yourself sick, love. Your body isn't used to so much food at once yet. Please don't stuff yourself when you don't even want to eat just to make us happy. We love you anyway," Michael tried to assure him.

Luke bit his lip as a tear slipped out and nodded slowly. He just wanted to be perfect like the others. Even though Michael said they would love him no matter what, he still knew he wasn't good enough for them.

Luke slowly pulled himself from his boyfriend's embrace and walked out of the room and into the kitchen.

A few minutes later, Calum came in after him. He walked over to the taller boy, who was sitting on one of the spinny black chairs at the island, and wrapped his arms around him from behind.

Luke spun his chair around and launched himself into Calum's arms. Soon, tears began falling from his pale blue eyes.

"Wh-what's wrong?" Calum asked, tightening his grip on the sobbing boy.

Luke shook his head and took a deep breath. "I just want to be perfect like you guys are. I want parents who actually care about me and don't beat me everyday. I want to be attractive like you and Ash and Mikey are. I don't want to have this eating disorder anymore. I don't want to have to cry myself to sleep every night. I just... I want to be like you, Ashton, and Michael. I want to be perfect. But I'm not and I never will be," he poured out, tears still streaming quickly down his face.

Calum sighed and pulled the crying boy closer.

Luke wrapped his arms around Calum's neck and his legs around his waist, trying to get as close as possible.

"I-it's okay, L-Lukey. I th-think you're perfect," Calum said honestly.

Luke only shook his head, but he held on tighter and sobbed harder. He knew Calum was only saying that to make him feel better and stop crying so much.

They stayed in that position until Luke eventually calmed down a bit and his tears slowed but didn't fully stop.

He pulled back but kept his arms loosely wrapped around the kiwi boy's neck.

Calum lifted one hand from Luke's waist and wiped away his still flowing tears.

"Are y-you okay n-now?" he whispered to the boy.

Luke shook his head and a broken sob escaped his lips once more and he hid his face in his hands.

Calum shook his head and removed them. He looked at the blonde for a moment, deciding whether or not to do it...

The decision was yes... he had to do this.

Luke felt soft, plump lips against his. He gasped in shock at first, but eventually kissed back passionately. His tears had stopped.

They pulled away when they heard the kitchen door open. There stood a completely shocked Michael standing in the doorway. Ashton soon appeared behind him.

"You guys have been out here for a while. What have you been doing?" Ashton asked, having not seen what Michael saw but had a clue because of the position the boys were in.

"Awwww, that was so cute!" Michael exclaimed. Ashton rolled his eyes and smiled fondly.

Luke and Calum blushed furiously and Luke buried his face in Calum's neck, biting back a smile.

"Lukey, have you been crying?" Ashton asked, always observant.

Luke looked over at him and nodded. "Yeah, I was. But I'm okay now. Calum helped me," he said, shooting the kiwi boy a shy smile.

Luke hopped down from the chair and walked over to the other two boys, pulling Calum along with him.

Michael wrapped his arms around Calum's waist. "So when do I get my kiss? Everyone's gotten theirs but me," he whispered to the now flustered boy.

Calum blushed a deep crimson and stood on his toes, giving Michael a quick kiss on his cheek.

Michael chuckled at the action and kissed Calum's nose. "We all really like you Calum. You know that right?" Michael asked seriously.

Calum didn't nod 'yes' or shake his head 'no'. He simply wrapped his arms around Michael in a hug and sighed. He hoped the color haired boy was telling the truth.

All four of them walked back up to Ashton's bedroom and cuddled back up on the bed, completely in content.

Even though tonight wasn't as perfect as they had hoped, they still ended it absolutely happy. It was perfect enough for them...