Silence (5sos ot4)

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A/N- Hellooooooo again!!! Another chapter... I feel like I rush things when I write, but I like this chapter. I think. And quick question, who all loves Fall Out Boy because I've been obsessed with their song The Kids Aren't Alright for days tehe. Anyway... Enjoy this odd fanfic...

The rest of the day went by quickly. And luckily, Calum had Ashton (whom he had grown to like...a lot) in all of his new classes. Ashton was really sweet and fun and he could care less that Calum didn't talk. He even decided to leave Michael and Luke at lunch after he noticed how Calum tried to hide behind him when he saw Luke. He sat with Calum instead and texted Michael saying how he was sorry he didn't sit with his boyfriends today. Michael only replied with a simple 'okay, I love you' and 'tell Calum I said hello'. This day was very simple and nothing exciting had even happened, but this was honestly the best day Calum has had in a long time.

Now, Calum and Ashton were sitting in the same spot Calum had met him at this morning. They had one last class period, but a note on the door had stated that they wouldn't be having that class today due to the teacher being absent and not finding a substitute on time. Ashton had just gotten done talking about something that happened with him, Michael, and Luke once. When the story was finished Ashton watched Calum for a while.

He took in everything he could about the silent boy the whole day he had been with him. He looked at Calum's appearance and the depressed look he constantly had in his eyes that seemed to slowly disappear as he had been talking to him. He looked at how the kiwi boy was dressed: an oversized grey sweater that was perfect for this fall weather, black skinny jeans that might as well have been tights, and his black and white Vans. He looked at his hair, which was completely black other than the few blonde highlights in the front.

But most of all, he noticed how Calum acted. He noticed the little things he did, some which were adorable, some that made him worry. He noticed the way Calum would hide half of his face with one sleeve covered hand and close his eyes when he was thinking. He noticed how quickly Calum would pull down the sleeves of his sweater if they accidently came up. He even noticed how tense Calum would get if someone touched him, no matter how gentle the touch was.

Overall, Ashton thought Calum was beautiful. He thought he was extremely adorable and really nice and sweet. He didn't understand how anyone could even think about hurting this boy, but he's seen it happen. Only once in person. But that one time was one of the worst. Calum ended up having a panic attack and nearly passed out due to lack of oxygen that time. No one tried to help him. If anything they just tried to make it worse. Ashton regretted not doing anything that day.

Ashton knew he was staring. He couldn't get enough of how beautiful the boy in front of him was. So it didn't surprise him when Calum nudged his phone forward for Ashton to read.

Why are you staring at me?

It said. Ashton smiled sweetly at him. "I'm staring because you are gorgeous, darling," he said, a hint of fondness in his voice. Calum blushed furiously and looked down.

Please don't say things you don't mean...

Calum typed and hid his face with his sweater covered hands. He could feel the tears threatening to fall again from Ashton's words. Even though he knew Ashton didn't mean it, no one had ever bothered saying anything like that to him before. He felt a hand gently tug his own away from his face, but he looked away.

"Hey. No. Don't do that," Ashton whispered, tapping Calum's chin, forcing Calum to look him in the eyes. "You are beautiful okay? Don't act like you're not. Not only on the outside but on the inside especially. You're just too precious and sweet and just beautiful Calum. Never let anyone tell you that you aren't, okay."

Calum nodded slowly and looked down again, a few tears slipping from his eyes. No one's ever told him something like this before and he didn't know how to act. He felt Ashton sit down beside him and pull him into his lap. He buried his face in Ashton's neck and cried silently. His breathing soon began to get heavier and Ashton must have noticed because he started whispering sweet nothings in his ear until he eventually calmed back down.

Calum pulled back and wiped his eyes with his sleeve. Ashton turned his head towards him again. "Are you okay now?" he asked, concerned. Calum nodded and wrapped his arms around Ashton's neck. He saw Ashton's eyes search his face for a moment before he asked, "Can I kiss you?"

Calum's heart began to race. He held up a finger signalling Ashton to wait and quickly typed away.

Ashton... I'm scared. I haven't had my first kiss yet. I kind of thought I never would... and wouldn't that be cheating. You already have Michael and Luke.

Ashton gave him another fond smile and linked his arms around Calum's almost too tiny waist. "Well, no it wouldn't be cheating. Because this is already a three way realtionship, we all came to an agreement that if we found someone who seemed okay enough to be in our relationship we can make a move on them. Which is why Michael brought you to meet us in the first place. He's been texting me all day to make sure you've been okay with me and that nothing bad has happened to you. But as long as our relationship never exceeds four people, we'll be okay.

"And I think it's adorable that you haven't had your first kiss yet. And of course you will have one. You also don't have to be scared. And if, in the future, you allow me to be your first kiss, I promise it will be special. Hopefully, and I'm sorry about how cliche this sounds, but hopefully you'll feel sparks. Because that means we actually have a connection."

Calum bit his lip and nodded thoughtfully. He picked up his phone again, his hands shaking.

Okay... I think I'll be okay if you kiss me...

Ashton read the note and looked Calum in his eyes. "What? Cal... I don't want to pressure you into doing something you're not ready for. Are you sure about this?" Calum took a deep breath and nodded more firmly this time. He wanted to speak to let Ashton know he was positive, but he couldn't risk that. His voice along with his lisp and stutter were already bad. He didn't want to show Ashton any more flaws than he's already seen.

Ashton nodded. He cautiously started moving forward. He could smell Calum's minty breath as he leaned in closer. "Are you sure you want this?" He asked once more. Calum nodded and tightened his arms around Ashton's neck.

Ashton leaned the rest of the way in and softly connected their lips together.

Calun nearly gasped at the shocks he felt run through him. Ashton's lips were pressed against his in a closed mouth kiss. He let Ashton guide him through the kiss. Ashton slowly started moving his lips. Calum moved his lips following Ashton. He was in complete bliss. He never expected to have his first kiss, let alone for it to be this good. At least he hoped it was good. They kept this up for a few seconds, both feeling ecstatic about it, tingles running through their veins. Calum let out a soft whimper, the first sound he had made since they met.

Ashton pulled away. To him the kiss was perfect, but this was Calum's first. He looked at the boy, who was red faced and breathing heavily. "Was it okay, Cally? Did you enjoy it?"

Calum gave Ashton a shy smile and nodded. Ashton beamed. "That's great, babe. So your first kiss was nice? Thank God." Ashton pecked Calum on the lips again, but soon deepened the kiss again. When he pulled away, Calum could honestly say he felt happy. He couldn't even begin to remember the last time he felt this happy.

A small giggle escaped his lips and he slapped a hand over his mouth, but Ashton moved it away. "That was adorable Calum. I wouldn't mind hearing that little giggle more often."

Calum nodded, then, deciding he wanted one more kiss, pouted at Ashton, who caught on quickly to what Calum wanted. "Of course, darling," he responded and gave him another kiss, both smiling into this one.

And yes. Calum could easily say this had been the best day of his life...