Love and Hate (paused)

Friends...with benefits

The next day

Dixies POV: after a eventful night at my second home. Me and Delilah went home she didn't want to but saying no is just one of the many features of being a mommy and especially to a very sassy girl. The next day me and Noah had plans for dinner. I was kinda scared and I know this is kinda slutty of me but I like him again he was so good with Delilah. From past experience I knew he was good for me. This scared me even more, I wasn't god for him all this time that I spent with someone else he waited. He may not have hope for us but he waited. He knew there was no one for him and I was off raising his child with another man. All the regret came back but my thoughts disappeared when Delilah waddled down the stairs. She said "momma when we gowing to gandma and gamdpa," I responded with a little giggle as it was funny how she said everyone's names "later on baby girl we are going to see Noah Right now," she clapped and we went upstairs to get ready.

Payton wore this

I wore this
We got in our Tesla and singed songs. We soon pulled up to the brunch where we would meet noah and spend the day with. Later in we Seoul's drop her off at the parents house snd we would go settle grown up things during Dinner. We got to the brunch and Noah was already sitting down he looked fine asf but I tried to contain it all but tightening my grip on Delilah and we both smiled and walked over to Noah.

Noah Noah as wearing this but his top was more opened. Delilah then practically jumped out of my hand and ran to Noah and as soon as he got a hold of her he hugged her an threw her in the air, all I thought was wow. Griffin didn't do it, but noah the one that just met his hidden child didn't  care that gave me a sense of comfort I finally caught up to the adorable sight of them hugging and Noah hugged me I hugged him back and that's when I knew this is how it was supposed to be either dating or just through deletions even though I would much prefer to have us dating. We started talking about Delilah and her life. We talked about what noah was doing while I was raising his child which I took as guilt, and Noah cheered me up telling me everything was okay now.

Almost 3 years ago Delilah's birthdate
I was in pain and griffin wasn't even their i mean where the hell was he. I was having a child he thought was his and he couldn't show up. 40 minutes later I was 7 centimeters dilated. Griffin walked in I guess he thought I didn't see him hickeys and lipstick smeared on his face but I had anger to give him another day I was focused on this child. 5 hours later the doctors handed me my baby girl. The thing that would keep me on this world even though her father would never be there. Griffin tried comforting me but failed as I was much stronger than him. I cried as my baby did too I soon calmed her and I looked at griffin who was mesmerized in the baby he snapped out of it and It was one of the times where even if your mad at someone you see them in the rest of your life. I said Delilah though my sobs and he just nodded and kissed me and then Delilah on her forehead.

We talked laughed and I may have got a little flirting which I knew he noticed because he got nervous. Delilah and I got into our car following Noah for what he called his 'Delilah surprise' which was a carnival that he rented out for just us which I found that adorable. I don't think he realized Delilah already excepted his as a dad she knew to but it was hard to realize it when your a 2 year old. When we pulled up Delilah had her glittery blind fold on the noah got specifically customized with her name in it. He picked her up from her car seat and we walked to the gate of the carnival paparazzi stoped us being very surprised but we soon got rid of them and said it wasn't the right time which they understood because they left us alone. We had arrived at the gate and Noah said "Delilah I know me being your dad is new but I love you so much and I don't know what griffin may have told you but you are so so so special in my eyes and I would do anything for you," Delilah smiled and said "I wove you too nowh," and then Noah took off the blindfold and she gasped and then hugged Noah tightly then Noah said looking at me "thank your mommy two she helped out," Delilah looked at me and jumped into my arms "dank you momwy I wore you," i smiled lioking at noah who was looking at us in awe "I love you to know let's go," I grabbed Delilah's hand and Noah took her other hand. Noah and I got flirty with each other but also had a really fun time in the rides with Delilah we all shared nachos and got funnel cake and I've cream. We let Delilah choose everything and I thought as we were getting on the Ferris wheel that all the years that griffin hand me and Delilah he didn't do any of this for us and in the week that we were in Noah's life he had done almost everything protecting us, helping us, making sure we had fun, and I just imagined what it would be like if I never left, and if I never got with griffin.  The sun started to go down and Delilah was getting tired so we dropped her off at the house and headed to the resultant with Noah driving in my car he had left his at the house dropping Delilah off.

We made it and sat down and it was a fancy rich restaurant. Which gave me our first date memories we talked about how I felt when Delilah was born and some sad stuff when the difference between Noah and griffin somehow got brought up Noah said sadly like he was about to cry. "Why did you leave please tell me was I know good enough, what should I have done," my hands attached to Noah's and I got this buzz it was like a spark and soon my lips were on his and this was as the spark the buzz told me it was coming and the snark was, Indescribable. After what felt like a decade noah pulled away and just looked Nandi guess it finally hit him that his cheated girlfriend, baby hider, and person who broke him and tore him into pieces was kidding him. He moved back which scared me he said "no no no no no," I stepped back to I didn't want to feel like the one being left even though it hurt like hell that's what he felt when I left this is only and all my fault. I said sad like I was going to cry "what" he then responded grabbing my hands "dixie I loved you then and I have been loving you for the 2 years, while you were off raising my child with someone. I hope you don't think that you can come into my life that quick," I nodded I was about to say sorry but then he said again "hey it's okay no need to say sorry, I see myself with you again I have but it will take a hell long of time because I can't love you if I don't love myself enough," I then said "okay noah I get that but I have to," and he cut me off pulling me into another kiss he was longing for me too it would just take time to be together and I could wait forever it felt. We pulled away and I giggled and said "friends" holding out my pinky and he grabbed my hand and kissed and said "with a few benefits" after that we left and spent the night at our parents with Delilah. Dreaming of each other and what we had been and what we could now that a child was involved.