Love and Hate (paused)

A possible Never Again

The next day

Noah's POV: I had a very confusing day I was happy and grateful but I was also sad and confused. It was the next day and I hadn't cried but I was still sad. We arrived in the Bahamas and we were walking on the deck to go get food as it was already 12 and Delilah was complaining. Dixie walked up to us bag full of hands and said "um can you meet me at the Bahamas airport when I leave at 6 so I can say bye to Delilah," I nodded. She walked away and we had plans to go snorkeling and then to a aquarium. For Delilah instead of her going snorkeling because well she couldn't. We got her a water proof ocean VR so she could have her floats on and still be head above water but be doing something that doesn't cause her to drown. Each of us would take turns watching her as well. We made it to the snorkeling sight and we got all of our gear on including Delilah's. We were getting into the water when Delilah grabbed my hand and said "no dada I'm scarwed," I picked her up not putting the VR on her yet and I stepped a bit into the water and she put her head in the crook of my neck. I smiled I actually felt like a father without Dixie coming to the rescue. She repeated "no dada I scarwed," I said "no baby it's okay I promise what are you scared about," she pointed her hand to the clear blue water and then said "da waterw," I said "well baby that's the same type of thing you take a shower and bath with and you also drink water so why is this one scary," she said lightening up just a little bit and said "because dis one is dirwty and it has fisys," I giggle a bit and said "baby I promise the fishy's won't hurt you they can be your friends," she looked up and a slight smiled appeared and said "my friewnds," I laughed "yes baby your friends," she said "otay but you have to stay wif me so I don't get wonley," I smiled and held out my pinky and said "promise," she held her picky out and we pinky promise. I went deeper into the water until she was half asleep at in and then I put her VR making sure she was comfortable. She gave me the thumbs up and as soon as I turned it on she smiled and began talking to her 'fisie friewnds' as she would say after a hour me and char switched and then a hour later she took a break on the sand with me and then another hour later we thought it would be time to go.

We went to lunch and we had were ordering our drinks when a familiar laugh came from the door and everyone at the table heard it to we looked and saw Dixie with the guy. He was new no one knew him and we assumed he was someone who loves her that she saw. She soon spotted us and waved everyone just looked at her and her smile didn't fade but just stayed there but you could see I'm her eyes that she fell apart so I did a slight way with a very short and dim smile. Her eyes lit up and I felt complete she sat down with the mystery man, and I soon got a flashback to the last time I said mystery man.

"Lucas what the hell are you doing here," Lucas responded in the tone that he was right "well I am taking back what is mine," I looked at Dixie and she looked in confusion. I looked back at Lucas and said "what the fuck does that mean," Dixie started to cry she was scared I could see it in her eyes this made me pissed he was scaring Dixie but I contained it "listen I don't know why the fuck your here or why the fuck your hurting my family but you need to leave," he shook his head and laughed "your family noah I was family," I said laughing the same way he did "yeah keyword was," and then he pulled out a gun. I was making him mad a gun was involved I put hands up basically telling him he had control and I spoke again softly but still telling him to leave "Lucas what do you want," "don't you remember" he said. I then said confused "what," he then said "oh noah you were the youngest out of your 3 siblings, addi had been born and was 6, Blake was 7 and you were cluelessly 5. Your parents were in love and then my mom went a fucked your dad. My parents got a divorce but your in love parents didn't your dad was kicked out for a little bit but in the end there still together. During your dads departure my mom couldn't take care of me so she gave me away to your family. Your parents didn't care for me, and you spoiled brat kids couldn't either. Then when I was 17 your parent let me go I practically had to raise myself why you guys grew up in a rich house with money and school and so much more. You were the special kid so now I will make sure that you don't have anyone just like I did and I'm started with your slurry girlfriend and the outcome of being a slut,"  the gun was still pointed to me but he could tell his comment kissed me the fuck off  "Lucas I know my parents messed up but you don't call dixie a slut and that girl in there is my whole world," he just smiled and I said once again "just please let them go and you can do whatever you want with me," he nodded and said "I will take that offer," he walked over to Dixie and untied her I went to go get Delilah and I walked back into the living room I hugged both my girls and then pulled something out of my pocket. I looked at Dixie and said "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry that I can't be with you dixie I'm sorry I put you through this but I love you so much I do, I will and I always have," we were both crying I grabbed the thing and put it around her neck it had the words 'I promise' on it and then I dropped down to Delilah "baby girl I'm sorry I can't be the dad you need" she just shook her head in disagreement "no dada you are gweat," I started crying and put a matching necklace on her but it only had promise on it. I kissed Delilah's head and hugged her like I would never let go. I got back up and was level with Dixie now I said "I'm sorry I can't ask you to be my girlfriend because I really really really want to and then I want to marry you, and do all the things you desire. Please don't stop loving yourself if I don't make it out of here," and then like it was are first and last I kissed her and she kissed me back. I pulled away and hugged both of my girls as me and Dixie cried. I walked them to the door and spoke in Dixies ear "don't leave Pull out the driveway call the police and family okay," she nodded and kissed me again still not having hope I would leave and then I said "I love y'all" and Dixie said "we love you to more than you know," I closed the door an turned to Lucas. He tied me up as I didn't do anything making him believe I was in capable of doing anything he spoke about how the pain I would feel was even equivalent to what he felt and then his gun pointed to my chest and then the trigger was pulled and I sat in a puddle of blood he untied me and let me lay there. He walked out the front door and well that's when I went unconscious.

But I was okay now and we were past that but who could this person be and was did I feel jealous after all the shit she caused me and has been causing me to go through, but that's because I love her and that will never change even if she doesn't love me which she made that very clear. I would glance over at Dixie and mystery man a couple times throughout the lunch and then got closer every time. We finished eating and I paid for the bill. We got up and walked past dixie Delilah hugged her and said "bye mommy see you lwater," Dixie said "bye baby," Dixie looked at me and looked sorry and this made me think that this wasn't a random guy this was a guy she had interest in, this wasn't a friendly lunch this was a hookup lunch. That made me infuriated and I just rolled my eyes walking out of the restaurant as she sat there a continued talking not having a care in the word about me, her daughter or anything else. All I could think was how did I love such a selfish, un-dependable person, but I have been thinking this for a while and I continue to love her with gave me a light of hope for us even though I wouldn't let her in. Even thought that hurt me like hell.