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🖤Sakuatsu💛

Heyyyy sorry for not writing for a while I had a lot of shit with my friends going on and it's still happening but here's a chapter that's the result of me venting about that...

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I guess I never really fit in in the first place... It was always my brother, wasn't it? Stupid Osamu...

I was never meant to be with Suna was I? That was always stupid Osamu

Not everyone is born to be loved by their parents either, right? Yeah, parents always have favorites, right? It's not just my family, right? But, unfortunately, I'm not that favorite... Again, it's always been stupid Osamu...

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Fucking. Dumbass. Osamu.

I guess, for a while he was always the person I relied on, he's my twin after all and was obviously my built in best friend, right?

Yeah he was.

Keyword: was...

My dumbass self had to fall for his friend, Suna...

I'd liked Suna since we first met, almost 7 years ago...

Of course, Osamu was the first to know.... As always he kept it a secret...

But because it was a secret he could use that to his advantage...

No one would find out that I'd liked Suna, right?

No one would care if they did.

Because I'm just the ugly, stupid, useless, waste of space, suicidal, freak version of Osamu.

So even if Osamu started dating my crush of 7 years, what does it matter, right?

It doesn't matter anyways.

Because it never matters.

I don't matter.

I'm not good looking.

I'm not beautiful.

I'm not talented.

I'm not smart.

I'm not social.

I'm not popular.

So what does it matter that Osamu took one thing away from me?

I have nothing anyways.

It's not like Suna was mine, I just was dumb enough to hope for a chance.

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It was around 2 am where I couldn't take the suffocating air in my room anymore.

I left to go to the park near my house.

I sat down near this small pond. I remembered that once I sat here with Osamu and Suna.