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💛Tsukiyama🖤

a/n so I recommend you listen to the song feelings are fatal while reading this bc the lyrics are used in here.

People always call me a ray of sunshine.

Im happy for you...

They always say I'm nice. They say that my smile makes their day.

I smile for you...

They say that I'm so sweet to put up with Tsukki being mean.

I'd do anything for you, for you...

Little do they know

It's always for you...

It's all artificial

And never for me...

I can't take it anymore.

And I need it to stop... So let me tell you please

I can't put this mask up any longer. I need people to know how I feel.

I'm always sad...

No one genuinely enjoys my company.

I'm always lonely...

But if you knew I thought that, you would try to convince me that you like my presence.

But I can't tell you...

Because despite what people say, you're so nice to me Tsukki.

That I'm breaking slowly...

There's a reason I can't tell you about everything I feel. I already know you don't love me back. How do I know, you ask?

Closed doors, locked in, no keys...

I went to the doctor the other day.

Keepin' my feelings hidden..

That morning I had been coughing up some weird stuff.

There is no ease...

Flower petals to be specific.

I need it to stop...

You've heard of Hanahaki disease, haven't you Tsukki?

And I want to be able to open up but...

I'm dying Tsukki.

My feelings are fatal..

I already knew that I was dying before a normal age.

My feelings are fatal...

I had depression.

How many times must I keep it inside...

And anxiety and Dysphoria.