𝑆𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑠 𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑔~ 𝑆.𝑅𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑠

𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑟𝑡𝑦 𝑆𝑖𝑥

Life on the run was just how I remembered it to be, I found it fun although I think that I'm the only person who did, it seemed to be taking a toll on everyone else but I guess that was because I had lived like this for nearly a decade and they had not. Scott and Clint had given in because living like this was so hard for them and their families so they took plea deals and house arrest which was understandable.

I kinda missed Scott he was really fun to be around and he actually reminded me of my dad, they had the same kind heart and fun loveable energy and the way he spoke about his daughter was everything.

"You know you're not supposed be out for so long." Steve scolds once I get back to our motel room, "I'm always fine." I shrug, "and what if one day you're not?"

"Then we flee it's not like we're gonna stay here for long anyways."

"You have to be more careful." He says making me nod, "You got it Captain." I say with a wink and a salute making him shake his head with a slight laugh which he tried to keep to himself. "Coral you know that this is serious."

"I mean Stevie-" He scoffs in distaste at the nickname but he should've known by now that a reaction like that would just make me use it more, "I was on the run for almost a decade so I think we'll be fine. I know what what I'm doing."

"You were on the run alone, you're not alone anymore you have us to factor in. It's not as easy being on the run with a group of people compared to doing it alone."

"Ok that's fair but what I was doing was important."

"And that was?"

"Watching the new Star Wars movie." I shrug sheepishly as his face changes, "You were what?"

"Steve you know I was waiting to watch that, I couldn't just not watch it!"

"Cora what were you thinking?! Why would you-"

"I had to."

"Cora we are in hiding! What made you think that this was ok? We are all risking everything here! You can't do stuff like that without even telling me! Why would you risk everything for a movie? Do you want to be arrested again? Do you want to be bound up and thrown back into the raft? I remember how I found you Cora you weren't even yourself you were like dead on the inside do you think I want that to happen to you again?" He takes a step forward as he's shouting which makes me flinch unconsciously making him stop in place his face falling.

"I'm sorry." I tell him looking away, "I didn't mean to." I say referring to the flinch, I knew Steve wouldn't hurt me,  "I don't know why-"

"Don't apologise for that, it's not your fault Cora. I'm sorry for scaring you, I would never ever-"

"I know Steve, I know trust me I do. I trust you and I don't think that you would ever hurt me." I say frowning at the fact I'd messed up so bad.

I step forwards and take his hand in mine, "I trust you." I repeat lifting his hand to my face and kissing his palm before putting it on my cheek. "And I'm sorry I know that I shouldn't have gone but... when I was a kid my dad used to force me to watch the movies with him. They were his favourites and I hated them, but they made him happy so I  tolerated it and now I watch them for him because he can't anymore."

"It's stupid and I'm stupid for not thinking things through but it's the only thing I have left to connect me to him, when I fled I lost everything and it's all I have." He nods but I keep going.

"But I should've told you where I was going and I'm sorry, I don't want to worry you or put you at risk, and I'll do better."

"Cora, Cora it's ok." He says cutting off my rambling, "I shouldn't have let myself get so worked up over it I'm just worried about you, I care about you so much and every time you walk out the door I can't think about anything but you and I feel like I can't breathe until I finally see your face and know that you're ok."

The way he cared for me actually scared me a bit, I didn't know how to react or how to feel. It made my heart warm but I felt like he held me so high up in his eyes and I wasn't this person that he made me out to be. I knew I wasn't. But I cared about him just as much, he was on my mind all the time and I worried for him constantly. I didn't know how to tell him that. I hug him tightly burrowing my face in his neck as he holds the back of my head.

I close my eyes and play with the hair at the nape of his neck as I try to build up the courage to say that I love him,  but I just couldn't do it, I don't know why. My throat felt blocked and as though it was closing up, like there was something stopping me and so I sigh and just hold him hoping that I'll be able to soon.

I had my science exam today but I think I failed it so haha I've been crying all day. Anyways Eid Mubarak to everyone celebrating love you all 🥰