Julia x reader

Flashbacks

⚠️TW SH AND RAPE⚠️

I woke up my heart pounding I looked around and realised that it was still night as the room was dark I checked out the small window to be sure and looked at the ticking clock which read 2:30am. I sat on my bed still trying to calm myself down from the dream or rather flashback I just endured. I tried focusing on the arms of the clock as they slowly moved making a small ticking sound each time, after at least 10 minutes I managed to control my breathing.

I had these flashbacks quite often they always came when I least expected it, I remember fighting crying trying to push him off my body but he was persistent and I couldn't stop him.

I tried so hard not to think of this event I really did i pushed it down and it came back to haunt me at the worst times I couldn't help but think of all the names I was called after telling my parents what had happened, I was told it was my fault all of it and that I had to suck it up and deal with it, so I dealt with it in my own way, I say dealt really I mean coped I never properly processed what happened and this only made it harder. I coped by bringing a razor to my skin by seeing the blood rush down my arms it hurt but it distracted me from the pain in my mind.

I knew I shouldn't but the urge was too much, I went to the bathroom right in front of me lay a razor for shaving I picked it up pulled it apart accidentally slicing my fingers in the process I did it again and again until I felt numb. I had completely forgotten about my surroundings and felt like I had lost my senses until I heard a knock at my door.

"Y/n ?" A voice called out quietly as not to disturb the rest of the family who were asleep, "y-yes who is it ?" I replied trying to hide my shaky voice from crying, "Its Julia I just wanted to talk to you" the voice said softly "ok just give me a second" I said. I quickly got up off the bathroom floor dried my eyes and grabbed a hoodie to cover my arms before opening the door calmly.

"Hi Dr Hoffman are you alright ?" I asked with a caring tone, "yes I'm fine thank you i couldn't sleep and I thought I heard some noise coming from up here so I wanted to see if anyone was awake to keep me company for a while" she said hesitantly "oh, well I couldn't really sleep either" I said letting out a sad laugh "would you like to come to my office for a drink ?" She asked "ok" I said knowing she would know something was wrong if I refused.

We went to her office and she went to grab my arm to pull me in her office as it was dark and I could quite see where I was going "oww" I winced in pain "what's the matter y/n, did I hurt you ??" She said worried "no Dr Hoffman I'm fine" I said trying to smile "please call me Julia and what's wrong ?" She asked again "nothing" I said harshly "you can trust me y/n" she said looked deep into my eyes.

I looked at her debating wether I could trust her or not "o-ok" I said shakily. I took my hoodie off revealing my cut arms, she gasped looking at my arms slightly tearing up which made me burst out crying, she walked over to a first aid kit that was kept in one of her cupboards and sat me down and cleaned and bandaged my arms without saying a word.

"It's ok I'm here with you" Julia said softly she then pulled me into her arms and hugged my tightly "thank you" I said trying to contain my tears, she held me tightly for the rest of the night as we sat in a comforting silence.