Julia x reader

Eat up

⚠️TW: ED⚠️

I went with David down to the dinning table ready for dinner, my heart was beating quicker and quicker and my breathing began to quicken as well. I was terrified. Why was I so scared ? 'It's just a meal y/n stop overreacting' I kept telling myself in my head hoping that I would just calm down and eat. Everyone arrived at the table and I desperately wanted to leave but I couldn't make up an excuse so I sat there dreading every second of what was to come.

"Y/n haven't seen you in a while" Elizabeth said looking happy to see me again "y-yeah aha" I said with a fake smile hoping she wouldn't ask anymore questions. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed Julia staring at me as we all waited for the food to come out.

"Thank you" Elizabeth said as the food was brought out. As my food was placed in front of me i suddenly panicked and my eyes grew wide and my hands began to tremble, of course Julia took note of this but I was too focused on the food to take note of Julia or anyone or anything else right now.

"Eat up then y/n" Carolyn said when she noticed I wasn't eating "o-oh yeah sorry I was just uh daydreaming" I said again putting on a fake giggle and smile, Carolyn smiled at me and continued eating her food. I then took a bite and immediately felt sick all I wanted to do was cry but I was tying my best to stop myself from crying as everyone was here and I didn't want to embarrass myself.

I ended up only taking 1 bite and thought no one noticed as everyone was occupied talking about the gathering Carolyn was planning. I then left the table and went straight to my room immediately breaking down and looked in the mirror feeling extremely guilty for the bite of food I had eaten. I went to the bathroom and was about to make myself sick when I heard a knock at my door.

"Y/n it's just me are you alright ?" I heard a familiar voice speak "y-yes I'm fine Julia" I replied and then without any warning Julia opened my door and came to find me in the bathroom over the toilet with my fingers down my throat. "Y/n what the hell ?" She said coming over to me grabbing my hand away from my mouth and that's when I completely broke down in Julia's arms, she held me tightly until I had calmed down.

"I think we need to have a chat" Julia said calmly to me, I didn't want to speak right now so I just nodded in agreement and followed her to her office.

We arrived at Julia's office and she escorted me to the patient bed where I sat waiting for Julia to start talking "so y/n can you tell me what you were doing in the bathroom ?" She asked cautiously "I- I just- I don't know- I" I kept messing up my words not knowing how to answer. "It's ok love you're safe you can tell me" she said smiling at me which made me feel safer and more comfortable almost instantly.

"I was trying to um make my self sick" I said my head hanging down in shame and embarrassment "ok, and why were you doing that ?" Julia asked. She knew why, she knew so why was she making me tell her "none of you're  damn business julia" I replied coldly feeling bad for my reply the second I said it "s-sorry I didn't mean to snap" I said "that's alright, I understand that this is hard for you to talk about but unless you tell me what's going on I can't help you" Julia said in a caring tone.

" I know" I sighed "I just - well it's just that I ate at dinner and every time I look at myself I hate the thing staring back at me and it's just that I felt disgusting and guilty and it sort of got the best of me" I said still feeling ashamed "ok thank you for telling me that y/n, and how long have you been feeling this way ?" She questioned "I don't know a while I guess" I answered "ok and when was the last time you ate ?" Julia asked me trying to make sure I was still comfortable "um I'm not really sure" I replied honestly " ok well I just want you to know that I'm very proud of you for talking to me about it and for being brave enough to tell somebody" I smiled slightly at Julia and hearing her say that she was proud of me made my heart fill with happiness and joy.

Ok so I know this is really short and probably not good at all but anyways I was on Wattpad and realised that I haven't updated this story in a while anyway please help me with suggestions on how you want this story to go cause I have no idea what I wanna do with it so yeah and thank you so much for the support I really appreciate it love you 💖💖