Solnishka - A Darklina Fanfic

Chapter 1

Disclaimer: This is not at all an accurate depiction of what happens in the books. All rights to these wonderful characters and this wonderful world belong to the very talented author, Leigh Bardugo. This fan fiction is simply a way for me to mend my broken Darklina stan heart <3

Setting: Alina and Mal are at the edge of the fold and the Darkling is awaiting his impending death by none other than his sun summoner.

Love is a strange thing. I always thought that true love, real love was of a just nature. I thought it to be a calm ever flowing and effortless act but I was wrong, I was so very wrong as I stood face to face with the truth I've been denying myself for so long. It felt like a bucket of cold water was dumped on my head at the realization and the world stopped.

I looked at the war around me, the utter chaos that transpired at every turn. I heard the screams of people in the distance, calling for me to save them all.

Sankta Sankta Sankta

They were all expecting me to end this.. to end him. It should be easy after all he's done. I should hate him with every ounce of my being but I couldn't. I've tried so hard but as he's said like calls to like

I stared down at him as my light blinded him, his shadows begging to be released and what I saw was not the darkling. It was Aleksander. He looked so weak.. so human. His eyes watered and he gave me a twisted smile as if he was relieved. Like I was taking him out of his misery before he fell to his knees, eyes closed trying to shield himself from the burning light.

" Alina! Do it!" I hear Mal yell

His command struck a cord in me and I came to the realization that I was done. I was done being commanded and pined after and moved around like a piece on a chess board. I am Alina Starkov, the sun summoner and I do not answer to anyone.

" Alina!" Mal yells again

" Stop!" I scream

Mal freezes in his tracks as I move closer to Aleksander.

" Alina.. please.. what are you doing?!" Mal yells, utterly confused.

I move closer to Aleksander, my light burning brighter than before.

Mal covers his eyes, trying to make out what I was doing.
" You must go, find the others and leave Ravka. Do not come back. Tell people to get as far away from here as possible." I tell Mal

"What do you mean?! What is wrong with you?! I'm not going anywhere!" He yells

I turn to face him, still channeling my power towards the darkling.

" I love you Mal, I thank you for everything but- I cannot kill him. You must leave." I choke

"No! He'll kill you! He'll ruin everything! Everything we've worked for! You are powerful enough Alina! You can do this!" He says

I take a deep breath focusing on my powers before answering.

" He won't kill me. I am not doing this because I am not powerful enough.. I'm doing this because I am weak." I said with a small smile

A sudden realization appears on Mal's face and I know he is heartbroken.. betrayed. I want to say something to justify it but he'll never understand because only Aleksander and I understand the pull between us.. we were destined to be together before the beginning of time and all we've done apart is cause destruction.. it will all end now.

" Go." I tell him weakly

He shakes his head

" Go! I can only hold him for so long."
I shout

More tears fall down my face as I crouch down to the darkling. He is no longer trying to see past my light. His eyes closed and his body tense from lack of darkness.

I grab his hand, making use of him as my own personal amplifier.

I waited.. and waited and waited until the calls of my name were no more. Until I knew every last soul within miles from the fold was not near.

I focus in on the energy surrounding me and with one exhale I obliterate all the darkness. The fold crumbles and the sun comes raging  forth.

There is no one or nothing for miles.. I drop to my knees drained of my power beside Aleksander who looks just as drained but I couldn't stop looking at him. It was all over.. but as Aleksander blinked his eyes open I knew it was just the beginning.